Apr 11, 2004 05:10
I don't desire anything sexual, no wham bam thank you maam, no tumble and out the door, not even necessarily a relationship. What I yearn for is physical contact that does not have to lead to anything.
People tend to think too far ahead; "are we dating?" "are we goingto fuck?" Stop thinking so much and let a moment take you to where you need to be.
I feel cold and isolated, more alone then ever. What I desire is someone to curl their hands in my hair, a warm body next to mine breathing softly, someone to keep the nightmares away, a reassuring circle of warmth beside me in bed, with no expectations. If something is meant to happen, trust that it will happen.
I'm tired, and the puppy is not allowed to sleep with me yet because she isn't house trained, and I rather not wake up in a pool of urine. I haven't been getting the sleep I need to get because when I lie in bed my body is exhausted but my mind reels with thoughts, hopes and curiosities.
Over analyzation is uncessary. If you live your life in fear you will always ask "what if".