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[phillipelaidah]

I was just listening to one of my old songs on my I-pod. It's weird how you hear something new on a song youve heard a million times. Before this song meant nothing to me, the words were uninspired and were just what came out at the time but now listening to it again its means something to me. Its sort of what I have been feeling like recently. To me its sounds like an angry conversation between someone and God. A someone who is tired of doubting and fearing God and his existence, and also tired of the crap boring christian life people say you should really live and just saying goodbye to it all and walking away. So don't come to any conclusions because sometimes we feel weird and we go through these little dark periods in are life where nothing makes much sense. And the ghosts that I speak of in the song are the ghosts of doubt and fear and the such.
Ok heres the song--

It’s too bad that I was wrong
And all the fun has gone
I faked all those sincerities
And now what’s left of me?
I’ve gone through this a thousand times
Alone in a room with no outside
These ghosts have come to haunt my mind
These ghosts have come to bleed me dry
Bleed me dry
You gave it so take it away
I’m nothing but in your way
You want me so take me out
I know that I’m without,
A soul, that may make me a man
But without it I know I’m damned

The evil in man, is in my hands
I’ll take it and run, I’ll burry it in below
I’ll hide it from you, I may never return to you
I’m not coming back this time.

Bleed me dry
You gave it so take it away
I’m nothing but in your way
You want me so take me out
I know that I’m without,
A soul, that may make me a man
But without it I know I’m damned

If you bring me to my knees, do you think I'll listen?