karma
let me attempt to explain to u the facts of my life.
i have 2 sets of karma: social and professional...
social deals with all things... social. wether it be friends, family, lovers.
professional, deals with the amount of tangible success in my life.
and i believe that these two are linked and share the same pool of good and bad karma.
with that being said...
ill always have money in my pocket, but be socially awkward.
ill be broke with no place to stay, but have friends willing to lend a helping hand...
fallow?
so as of right now. all my good karma is on my professional side.
good ass job. nice ass house. sold out show. fuck yea...
so in turn my social karma must suffer for my success.
im only basing this on the fact that i have sacrificed a lot to be as successful as i am today. i have also done everything by the book and i have paid my dues. i was selfless for the act of my success. i juggled a full class schedule and 2 internships for 6 months. worked as an intern for my current job for a year and a half.
so that explains why i have the best job ever and moved into the nicest house i have ever lived in and pay almost nothing for rent.
on a social level im a complete dick. i have done many fucked up things in my life that i am not proud of, nor do i wish to share and will probably take those actions to the grave. i have self sabotaged relationships because i was to afraid to share my true feelings. ive done many people dirty.
soo that explains why im soo fuckin awkward, really bad mood swings and my inability to be datable.
so since they share from the same karma pool, i cant have 100% good/bad karma for both.
and thats were the problem is. i need to find a medium. i need balance.
the only way i think it can work is if i dick people over professionally. which will cause a chain reaction for me to rely on my social karma, which if im correct will lead in doing more positive "social things" THUS regaining balance and becoming well rounded and generally happier.
easier said than done.
thee end.
... that was just a lil peek into my thott process.
i have 2 sets of karma: social and professional...
social deals with all things... social. wether it be friends, family, lovers.
professional, deals with the amount of tangible success in my life.
and i believe that these two are linked and share the same pool of good and bad karma.
with that being said...
ill always have money in my pocket, but be socially awkward.
ill be broke with no place to stay, but have friends willing to lend a helping hand...
fallow?
so as of right now. all my good karma is on my professional side.
good ass job. nice ass house. sold out show. fuck yea...
so in turn my social karma must suffer for my success.
im only basing this on the fact that i have sacrificed a lot to be as successful as i am today. i have also done everything by the book and i have paid my dues. i was selfless for the act of my success. i juggled a full class schedule and 2 internships for 6 months. worked as an intern for my current job for a year and a half.
so that explains why i have the best job ever and moved into the nicest house i have ever lived in and pay almost nothing for rent.
on a social level im a complete dick. i have done many fucked up things in my life that i am not proud of, nor do i wish to share and will probably take those actions to the grave. i have self sabotaged relationships because i was to afraid to share my true feelings. ive done many people dirty.
soo that explains why im soo fuckin awkward, really bad mood swings and my inability to be datable.
so since they share from the same karma pool, i cant have 100% good/bad karma for both.
and thats were the problem is. i need to find a medium. i need balance.
the only way i think it can work is if i dick people over professionally. which will cause a chain reaction for me to rely on my social karma, which if im correct will lead in doing more positive "social things" THUS regaining balance and becoming well rounded and generally happier.
easier said than done.
thee end.
... that was just a lil peek into my thott process.