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i have a penchant for even remotely liking the absolute wrong guy. as in, the guy who has no interest in me or the guy who has a girlfriend or the guy who is ten thousand times better than me. usually, it's all of the above. but alas, i make poor life choices, despite me telling myself that i will never bother with anyone unless i know they will bother with me. oh, to be a woman.
tonight was interesting. a good party. keg was kicked, everyone seemed to enjoy themselves. unfortunately, i spent a lot of time taking care of lindsey's boyfriend as he seemd to have a bad reaction to alcohol. it happens. and unfortunately for me, it made me feel like kind of crap for my own selfish reasons. no one ever cares about me, no one really bothers when i'm sad, i'll never have a boyfriend blah blah whine whine SHUT UP JENNY. i hate when i actually bother with emotion anymore. it's so obnoxious. when will i just become a droid?
it's almost 5am and i'm still awake, typing away at myself. i'm feeling like kind of a freak, but that's probably normal of me. is it even humanly possibly to be normal? i don't think so, but that's ok. because i had fun tonight.
thanks to all of you who recognized my hair and how it was different. you are fabulous.
and now, goodnight.
tonight was interesting. a good party. keg was kicked, everyone seemed to enjoy themselves. unfortunately, i spent a lot of time taking care of lindsey's boyfriend as he seemd to have a bad reaction to alcohol. it happens. and unfortunately for me, it made me feel like kind of crap for my own selfish reasons. no one ever cares about me, no one really bothers when i'm sad, i'll never have a boyfriend blah blah whine whine SHUT UP JENNY. i hate when i actually bother with emotion anymore. it's so obnoxious. when will i just become a droid?
it's almost 5am and i'm still awake, typing away at myself. i'm feeling like kind of a freak, but that's probably normal of me. is it even humanly possibly to be normal? i don't think so, but that's ok. because i had fun tonight.
thanks to all of you who recognized my hair and how it was different. you are fabulous.
and now, goodnight.