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Title: Teen Spirit (1 of 2)
Rating: T
Summary: There is something strange going on with Ryan. Contains mild language and drug references.
Word Count: 1,478
Teen Spirit
No one really knew how it started, but Ryan was not the same boy he had once been.
They could only watch through the one way window at the shivering, hunched up form. His fingers clenched at his blonde hair and his eyes sad and glazed, cast down at the floor.
Sandy put his fingers against the glass, longing to go back to before. How could he have been so blind as to not see what was going on?
A burst of strength brought Ryan to his feet. “Sandy!” He yelled. He sank once again to the floor as the first guard rushed into the room.
“No, please… Sandy, I’ve changed my mind. Help me!” Sandy covered his face with his hand unable to watch Ryan’s turmoil.
He turned to where Seth sat, his face pale and drawn at the sound of Ryan’s cries. A great bruise had taken over the left side of his face.
“Are you happy now?” he snarled.
xxx
The day earlier…
Ryan sat in the corner of the room, a hood up and over his head.
He needed them so badly but Seth had taken them away. His hands shook and he nervously rocked in place.
He needed them, why did Seth have to be such a little smart ass. He ran his hands through his hair and tried to relax. He wouldn’t get anywhere like this. He had to go through the house to Seth’s room but he couldn’t let Sandy or Kirsten see him like this.
He sighed, why couldn’t Seth have just let it alone? He wanted them so badly. It would be easy to quit and he had told Seth that, if he set his mind to it, he’d manage. The little bugger hadn’t believed him and had taken them away.
He just needed one more hit and then he would quit but Seth had taken them away. He’d been so quick that it had happened before Ryan had even realised he wasn’t holding them anymore.
That stupid idiot, seriously he had no idea what it was like to have to face Newport each day. He couldn’t face all the bitchy and two faced people that could only see him as the violent kid from Chino without them. He needed something to help him through and now Seth had taken away that one peace of home he had left, his one piece of comfort.
He jumped when he heard a knock at the door and Sandy’s head appeared.
“Hey kid, I was wondering if I could have a word?” He said it as a question and Ryan wondered why he even bothered, it wasn’t like he was allowed to say no.
He shrugged and tried to appear normal. He hid his hands in his sleeves to try and disguise the shaking.
Sandy sat down next to him, leaning against the wall and frowning slightly.
“So, Kirsten and I have been noticing you’ve been a bit distant lately.”
He spoke with a low, gentle voice. He watched Ryan with inquisitive eyes that he tried desperately to avoid contact with.
Sandy wouldn’t understand, he’d react just like Seth had.
“You know when I first moved to Newport it was strange for me as well. Sure, I didn’t have to deal with the teenagers but a lot of the newpsies weren’t exactly welcoming. I just want you to know that you’re not alone.” He leaned in closer and his frown deepened.
“Are you shaking?” He asked confused.
Ryan said nothing but began slowly moving away.
“Ryan? Is there anything you want to tell me?” Sandy asked. His face was filled with worry and Ryan looked away. “Are you feeling alright?”
Ryan nodded and withdrew further into himself.
Each day, the idea of running away came to him more and more but he didn’t want to give in. All his life he had given in to his mom’s boyfriends. The drugs were helping him deal but now Seth had taken them away.
Sandy sighed. “Please talk to me Ryan, you’re not yourself.”
Ryan shrugged and pulled himself to his feet. He kept his arms around his waist. “I’m going to find Seth,” He mumbled.
Sandy sighed loudly, “He’s out, said he’s got something to take care of. Goodness knows what… you boys are so secretive these days. You’re both driving Kirsten and I crazy.”
Ryan felt his temper rise at the knowledge Seth had gone out. He knew what he’d gone out to do. He slammed his hand into the wall in annoyance and ignored Sandy’s little gasp.
He slammed himself down on to the floor and put his face into his hands. He was already scrounging around for the money to buy the drugs and this had been a new batch. He wouldn’t be able to afford anymore for at least another month.
“Ryan, please tell me what’s going on.” Sandy pleaded coming closer and resting his hand on Ryan’s arm.
“You wouldn’t understand,” he mumbled but didn’t move away. Sometimes he wished that Trey was around in Newport, he’d know what to do and he’d understand. He wouldn’t just steal something and hide it before destroying it.
Sandy sat with him for a while but it became apparent soon enough that Ryan wouldn’t say anything else. He stood up quietly and left the room, shutting the door behind him.
xxx
Ryan sat on Seth’s bed, his shaking had worsened and his fury for Seth was gnawing away at him. What gave him the right to steal from him?
The door opened and the culprit came in, his head down and his eyes blank. Ryan stood up. “What the hell have you done with it?”
Seth looked around the room, his clothes lay scattered around and his comic books were strewn across the room.
He finally looked over at Ryan and for the first time ever, he felt fear at the look Ryan had in his eyes. It was of pure hatred and annoyance.
“Ryan, I’m just trying to help you.” He tried but knew it was useless. He frowned at Ryan’s shaking and face bathed in sweat.
“I need it. Seth, I promise I will quit but I need it now… just give me back a little bit.”
Seth shook his head sadly. “I can’t, you know I can’t. If it were me, you’d do the same thing.” He said softly.
“No I wouldn’t, I’d respect your needs. I wouldn’t steal from you!” Ryan yelled at him.
He ignored the sound of feet trampling up the stairs and swung at Seth.
He didn’t hear the door open but could feel powerful arms grabbing him and pulling him away from Seth. He was all but dragged from the room and Sandy’s voice appeared in his ear.
“Ryan stop it, calm down!”
He was pushed into another room and by then was so exhausted he collapsed on to the floor and watched as the figure came into the room.
“Ryan listen to me, you’re not yourself right now. You have to calm down.” There was a long pause and Ryan just lay back on the floor shaking and trying to keep still.
“Seth told us about the drugs, alright? Some people are coming over who can help you. They’re gong to take you somewhere, where you can get better.”
Ryan’s head shot up. “No I’m fine… I told Seth… I can take care of this myself. Why is everybody doing this to me?”
“Ryan listen, we want to help you.”
Feet on the stairs caught their attention and Ryan paled visibly.
“I don’t want to go…” he whispered. Sandy put a hand on his shoulder and rubbed it.
“Please Ryan, do this for us. I promise it won’t be for long and then you’ll be back here.”
The door opened and two people came in. Ryan looked up at them and looked frantically at Sandy.
“Ryan, they’re here to help. Please let us help you. Things can get better.”
The men stood to the side and waited for Sandy’s signal.
“Please Ryan, do this for me.”
It was only a slight nod but it was a nod nonetheless and Sandy signalled the men over.
They helped Ryan up and began walking him out of the door. Ryan looked at Sandy again and shot him a helpless look.
“We’re right behind you Ryan; we’re not leaving you alone in this.” He promised.
As they made their way down the stairs, Seth stopped his dad.
“You promised we’d take care of this as a family. If you lock Ryan up, he’s going to hate it… he’s going to hate me for telling you. I can’t believe you did this.”
He pushed past him to where his mom stood watching Ryan with sad eyes. They all watched the strangers take their newest family member away. Nobody knew properly what to say.
tbc…
Thanks for reading :)
Title: Teen Spirit (1 of 2)
Rating: T
Summary: There is something strange going on with Ryan. Contains mild language and drug references.
Word Count: 1,478
Teen Spirit
No one really knew how it started, but Ryan was not the same boy he had once been.
They could only watch through the one way window at the shivering, hunched up form. His fingers clenched at his blonde hair and his eyes sad and glazed, cast down at the floor.
Sandy put his fingers against the glass, longing to go back to before. How could he have been so blind as to not see what was going on?
A burst of strength brought Ryan to his feet. “Sandy!” He yelled. He sank once again to the floor as the first guard rushed into the room.
“No, please… Sandy, I’ve changed my mind. Help me!” Sandy covered his face with his hand unable to watch Ryan’s turmoil.
He turned to where Seth sat, his face pale and drawn at the sound of Ryan’s cries. A great bruise had taken over the left side of his face.
“Are you happy now?” he snarled.
xxx
The day earlier…
Ryan sat in the corner of the room, a hood up and over his head.
He needed them so badly but Seth had taken them away. His hands shook and he nervously rocked in place.
He needed them, why did Seth have to be such a little smart ass. He ran his hands through his hair and tried to relax. He wouldn’t get anywhere like this. He had to go through the house to Seth’s room but he couldn’t let Sandy or Kirsten see him like this.
He sighed, why couldn’t Seth have just let it alone? He wanted them so badly. It would be easy to quit and he had told Seth that, if he set his mind to it, he’d manage. The little bugger hadn’t believed him and had taken them away.
He just needed one more hit and then he would quit but Seth had taken them away. He’d been so quick that it had happened before Ryan had even realised he wasn’t holding them anymore.
That stupid idiot, seriously he had no idea what it was like to have to face Newport each day. He couldn’t face all the bitchy and two faced people that could only see him as the violent kid from Chino without them. He needed something to help him through and now Seth had taken away that one peace of home he had left, his one piece of comfort.
He jumped when he heard a knock at the door and Sandy’s head appeared.
“Hey kid, I was wondering if I could have a word?” He said it as a question and Ryan wondered why he even bothered, it wasn’t like he was allowed to say no.
He shrugged and tried to appear normal. He hid his hands in his sleeves to try and disguise the shaking.
Sandy sat down next to him, leaning against the wall and frowning slightly.
“So, Kirsten and I have been noticing you’ve been a bit distant lately.”
He spoke with a low, gentle voice. He watched Ryan with inquisitive eyes that he tried desperately to avoid contact with.
Sandy wouldn’t understand, he’d react just like Seth had.
“You know when I first moved to Newport it was strange for me as well. Sure, I didn’t have to deal with the teenagers but a lot of the newpsies weren’t exactly welcoming. I just want you to know that you’re not alone.” He leaned in closer and his frown deepened.
“Are you shaking?” He asked confused.
Ryan said nothing but began slowly moving away.
“Ryan? Is there anything you want to tell me?” Sandy asked. His face was filled with worry and Ryan looked away. “Are you feeling alright?”
Ryan nodded and withdrew further into himself.
Each day, the idea of running away came to him more and more but he didn’t want to give in. All his life he had given in to his mom’s boyfriends. The drugs were helping him deal but now Seth had taken them away.
Sandy sighed. “Please talk to me Ryan, you’re not yourself.”
Ryan shrugged and pulled himself to his feet. He kept his arms around his waist. “I’m going to find Seth,” He mumbled.
Sandy sighed loudly, “He’s out, said he’s got something to take care of. Goodness knows what… you boys are so secretive these days. You’re both driving Kirsten and I crazy.”
Ryan felt his temper rise at the knowledge Seth had gone out. He knew what he’d gone out to do. He slammed his hand into the wall in annoyance and ignored Sandy’s little gasp.
He slammed himself down on to the floor and put his face into his hands. He was already scrounging around for the money to buy the drugs and this had been a new batch. He wouldn’t be able to afford anymore for at least another month.
“Ryan, please tell me what’s going on.” Sandy pleaded coming closer and resting his hand on Ryan’s arm.
“You wouldn’t understand,” he mumbled but didn’t move away. Sometimes he wished that Trey was around in Newport, he’d know what to do and he’d understand. He wouldn’t just steal something and hide it before destroying it.
Sandy sat with him for a while but it became apparent soon enough that Ryan wouldn’t say anything else. He stood up quietly and left the room, shutting the door behind him.
xxx
Ryan sat on Seth’s bed, his shaking had worsened and his fury for Seth was gnawing away at him. What gave him the right to steal from him?
The door opened and the culprit came in, his head down and his eyes blank. Ryan stood up. “What the hell have you done with it?”
Seth looked around the room, his clothes lay scattered around and his comic books were strewn across the room.
He finally looked over at Ryan and for the first time ever, he felt fear at the look Ryan had in his eyes. It was of pure hatred and annoyance.
“Ryan, I’m just trying to help you.” He tried but knew it was useless. He frowned at Ryan’s shaking and face bathed in sweat.
“I need it. Seth, I promise I will quit but I need it now… just give me back a little bit.”
Seth shook his head sadly. “I can’t, you know I can’t. If it were me, you’d do the same thing.” He said softly.
“No I wouldn’t, I’d respect your needs. I wouldn’t steal from you!” Ryan yelled at him.
He ignored the sound of feet trampling up the stairs and swung at Seth.
He didn’t hear the door open but could feel powerful arms grabbing him and pulling him away from Seth. He was all but dragged from the room and Sandy’s voice appeared in his ear.
“Ryan stop it, calm down!”
He was pushed into another room and by then was so exhausted he collapsed on to the floor and watched as the figure came into the room.
“Ryan listen to me, you’re not yourself right now. You have to calm down.” There was a long pause and Ryan just lay back on the floor shaking and trying to keep still.
“Seth told us about the drugs, alright? Some people are coming over who can help you. They’re gong to take you somewhere, where you can get better.”
Ryan’s head shot up. “No I’m fine… I told Seth… I can take care of this myself. Why is everybody doing this to me?”
“Ryan listen, we want to help you.”
Feet on the stairs caught their attention and Ryan paled visibly.
“I don’t want to go…” he whispered. Sandy put a hand on his shoulder and rubbed it.
“Please Ryan, do this for us. I promise it won’t be for long and then you’ll be back here.”
The door opened and two people came in. Ryan looked up at them and looked frantically at Sandy.
“Ryan, they’re here to help. Please let us help you. Things can get better.”
The men stood to the side and waited for Sandy’s signal.
“Please Ryan, do this for me.”
It was only a slight nod but it was a nod nonetheless and Sandy signalled the men over.
They helped Ryan up and began walking him out of the door. Ryan looked at Sandy again and shot him a helpless look.
“We’re right behind you Ryan; we’re not leaving you alone in this.” He promised.
As they made their way down the stairs, Seth stopped his dad.
“You promised we’d take care of this as a family. If you lock Ryan up, he’s going to hate it… he’s going to hate me for telling you. I can’t believe you did this.”
He pushed past him to where his mom stood watching Ryan with sad eyes. They all watched the strangers take their newest family member away. Nobody knew properly what to say.
tbc…
Thanks for reading :)