keep close to what you hold dear

[philipcofm]

So I was thinking about something on the way to work this morning. I was thinking about how when people get older and start doing their own thing it is easy to grow apart and not be as close as before. Everyone has their own stuff going on which is awesome, but it sucks at the same time becasuse you know that things will not be the same forever. There are those people that you know you will talk to and hang out with for most of your life, but it just sucks that instead of growing together a lot of times you grow apart. I don't know what made me think of this really, i just found it sad. I guess there really is no conclusion to what i just said either so whatever.

I have been feeling kinda down lately, not down in the "kill me now" sense, but more of a state of loneliness and waiting. The loneliness applies to what i said before i guess...that whole growing apart or not being there as much thing..not too mention i am surrounded by boyfriends and girlfriends, which is obviously lonely much of the time. I don't really know the point of this post, i guess just to get some of this lonliness off my chest. I am kinda really sick of feeling this way, and even though i enjoy hanging out by myself feeling alone is no good. I really want to make a serious effort to be a great friend in the next few months and make sure people around me don't feel the same way as i do right now.

in other news shawn is moving in with me for awhile because her lease is up and she doesn't want to move home, i totally understand that so i am more than happy to help out. Plus she is sweet so living with her will be fun. duh

holla back