sometimes we try too hard to exist and forget to live....
Doing 85 in a 45, foot on the dash, other out the window cause the cruise is on hoping that you don't run into the cop who doesn't have bigger fish to fry. A kid just trying to get home or to school or go see his girlfriend five minutes sooner; to jerk off or grab a bite to eat. Chocolate and diet soda for a thin girl still trying to lose weight for a damaged self-esteem of a boy with a large zit. Moonlighting and swinging, but syphilis isn't fun and the self-righteous, self-conscious one always just wants to talk to the prostitute. A large pepperoni pizza for Christmas dinner and the damn groundhog always sees his shadow. All bark, no bite. All cock, no balls - because the chauvinist jack-ass doesn't realize a girl won't fawn over an egoist's erection. Rolex and a diamond solitare on a platinum chain. Mispronounced words and misplaced luxuries. Misplaced anger and a vintage t-shirt two sizes too small. The war inside my head is always the hard part. Emotions square off, put in the mouthpiece and joust. Skiing with goggles to keep a low profile. Missing the point all too often. Rashes in obscure places, love in obscure faces. Bennie and the Jets, Ronald McDonald, and Chong. Swastikas, white sheets. "I am the greatest." Moving pictures and sex arcades. Little John, John Irving, Irving Fryar, no; Irving, Texas. Dub-ya won on the re-re-re-recount. Marijuana is the gateway drug to pissing in the street, wearing a mock-turtleneck, writing his name in the snow; master of cute, dime store, parlor tricks. Drop a quarter, turn the dial, open the plastic container, read your destiny. Never a 70% off sale at Tiffanys; and no, they dont' serve breakfast. Yes, I've heard it a thousand times and it just gets funnier and funnier. Right, Mike Hunt? Right, Seymour Butts? Lunch on the Rio Grande, smoking a "special" cigarette. An ice cold Coke Classic at the Univer-Soul (not the Universe-Sol) Circus. Assimilation, what assimilation? Some people work with morality; command respect. Apples, homemade apple pie, apple crumble ice cream, spiced apple cider (with rum). AA, ACLU, AARP, ABBA, A&F, abracadabra. A struggling writer living in the dank dungeon of his potential; dissapointed that he can't tell a story and the only person he can touch is himself.