infuriated!!!
I am so angry I want to smack someone!!
I have cried twice this morning and it's not even noon! I don't even want to go into details because it makes so upset but bottom line is that I hate my job, I think my boss hates me, and everything about this office is the bane of my existence. They put me in this little back office, and the only good thing is the amount of privacy I get. I like to sit back here, especially times like now when I'm upset. But otherwise I just feel alienated. I work my ass off but am told to work harder or they'll "find another place for me." I ask my boss for some sort of tangible measurement of what I need to do to basically not get fired, and he doesn't seem to know. Then who does? I'm tired of this bullshit. The original plan was for me to be the loan processor in our branch but I'm just not sure I want to stay in this kind of environment. Maybe I need to find something totally different. I was only planning on doing the processing thing for just a little while, like a year or so until I found something better anyways...maybe I should just find something better now. Anybody have any ideas??? I need some inspiration right now.
In other news..it's Friday. Thank GOD!!!! But I have to work tomorrow, so that's not really cool. I need to talk to Aaron about the plans for this weekend. Hopefully things will work out so I'm not so stressed...
*deep breath*
I have cried twice this morning and it's not even noon! I don't even want to go into details because it makes so upset but bottom line is that I hate my job, I think my boss hates me, and everything about this office is the bane of my existence. They put me in this little back office, and the only good thing is the amount of privacy I get. I like to sit back here, especially times like now when I'm upset. But otherwise I just feel alienated. I work my ass off but am told to work harder or they'll "find another place for me." I ask my boss for some sort of tangible measurement of what I need to do to basically not get fired, and he doesn't seem to know. Then who does? I'm tired of this bullshit. The original plan was for me to be the loan processor in our branch but I'm just not sure I want to stay in this kind of environment. Maybe I need to find something totally different. I was only planning on doing the processing thing for just a little while, like a year or so until I found something better anyways...maybe I should just find something better now. Anybody have any ideas??? I need some inspiration right now.
In other news..it's Friday. Thank GOD!!!! But I have to work tomorrow, so that's not really cool. I need to talk to Aaron about the plans for this weekend. Hopefully things will work out so I'm not so stressed...
*deep breath*