I trust you...Its everyone else I'm worried about...
I absolutely, positively, cannot stand it. This feeling. I feel like an infant. Being babied. I dont even have an excuse to not excersize anymore. People tell me i cant and Im not allowed to.
I went to the doctor because i was having some pretty extreme headaches while running. He said I couldnt go to mexico. He said I need an MRI. And an MRA. And they took blood, and urine, and more blood....Kim said she would be there for me on the day I go to the exams. I love her. I was told It might be migranes, but it might be something more. I hope its migranes, and at the most I would have to delay boot. If its not, I am fucked. period. Kim said she would stay home and go to COD, but i will not let that happen. I honestly have not thought about what i would do if i wasnt able to get into the corps, because it wasnt an option to me. It still isnt. Oh well. Now im stuck not going to mexico, which i looked at as a final thing i could do to make me and God good. heh. You know what i mean. Anyways, Im stuck here, which isnt bad, because the more i think about it, the more time I am with Kim, the happier I am, so smiles across the board....mostly.
Its funny how you dont want something until your told you cant do or have it. Up until my appt, i was getting close to working out every day.....i had a little work out plan going, and whatnot. I wasnt excited about it or anything...but hey, i was doing what i needed to be doing. Now i am told by doctors, my mom, Kim, and everyone else that i cant work out, i cant do push ups, i cant do anything. Kim told me that she didnt want a piggy back ride yesterday because she didnt want to strain me. what the fuck. I am a Marine, God damn it. I dont care how fucked up I am, I can give a fucking piggy back ride. It makes me upset to be seemingly a huge pussy right now, having my mom and girlfriend tell me what i can and cant do, but i know they only want me to be ok. I am ok. I just have headaches. Like i do right now, actually. Because this morning I said fuck it, and started doing push ups. cause I can only go over general orders, and the ranking classes so much until i want something more. so I did push ups, and I have a God damned headache. Im going to go drink some water. Im out.
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I went to the doctor because i was having some pretty extreme headaches while running. He said I couldnt go to mexico. He said I need an MRI. And an MRA. And they took blood, and urine, and more blood....Kim said she would be there for me on the day I go to the exams. I love her. I was told It might be migranes, but it might be something more. I hope its migranes, and at the most I would have to delay boot. If its not, I am fucked. period. Kim said she would stay home and go to COD, but i will not let that happen. I honestly have not thought about what i would do if i wasnt able to get into the corps, because it wasnt an option to me. It still isnt. Oh well. Now im stuck not going to mexico, which i looked at as a final thing i could do to make me and God good. heh. You know what i mean. Anyways, Im stuck here, which isnt bad, because the more i think about it, the more time I am with Kim, the happier I am, so smiles across the board....mostly.
Its funny how you dont want something until your told you cant do or have it. Up until my appt, i was getting close to working out every day.....i had a little work out plan going, and whatnot. I wasnt excited about it or anything...but hey, i was doing what i needed to be doing. Now i am told by doctors, my mom, Kim, and everyone else that i cant work out, i cant do push ups, i cant do anything. Kim told me that she didnt want a piggy back ride yesterday because she didnt want to strain me. what the fuck. I am a Marine, God damn it. I dont care how fucked up I am, I can give a fucking piggy back ride. It makes me upset to be seemingly a huge pussy right now, having my mom and girlfriend tell me what i can and cant do, but i know they only want me to be ok. I am ok. I just have headaches. Like i do right now, actually. Because this morning I said fuck it, and started doing push ups. cause I can only go over general orders, and the ranking classes so much until i want something more. so I did push ups, and I have a God damned headache. Im going to go drink some water. Im out.
1-2-3-4-I-LOVE-THEMARINE-CORPS