Well, here goes another out of place entry

[philabuster]

Alrighty! here's another entry that will not match my original game plan for this account. Actually I should probably be typing this in my other account, but I dont care right now. I just need to get this out. I hate, and I mean HATE, this particular time of the year, and more specifically this time of this month. Both my mind and my body just want to shut down right now and i cant afford to let them do so. I have to constantly struggle w/ myself just to get me to do anything. I find that I'm even starting to retreat from playing pool. The worst thing is that I need to get myself going just the salvage the mistake i made in the beginning of the semester. I hate school! All these stupid f'ing projects and the due dates are all converging to around this time too! Im starting to get that hopeless feeling and I dont even know what to do. I'm fighting just to keep myself from giving up. And that usually means that the feeling is getting a little too much when i just give up. I wish i could meet up w/ one of my really perky friends or even Krystle right now. I really need to have someone make me smile right now i think.

And you know what, I wish that all those cancer commercials would just stop playing on every commercial break on the radio!

Ok, I think im done typing this in the journal that i always leave public about this stuff. Hopefully I can get a smile back and start acting goofy again. Honestly, thats the way I'd rather be around people.