the battle im stuck in

[phil_xxx]

im trying to protect my own heart. but it can't stay that way.
the person i care so to much about is pointless.
im in a battle, that i don't have to lose but i can never win.

im protecting an already hurting heart. i need to learn to let go.
in this situation i cant get what i want, and althoguh that kills me, its true.

i hate myself for this

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