ugh...
Real quick. I was talking to Matt. It got emotional once again.
Matt: I still have your ring. I look at it every night. It makes me so sad so I gotta put it away all the time.
Me: Why do you always look at it if it makes you sad?
Matt: It's something that means a lot to me. It's something I want to give you. And it's like, I can't... It's like that's all I have left of you, even though you didn't have it. It just reminded me of what we could have.
...gah!!! Why are boys s0o0oooo confusing?!?! I love him so much.. but it's not the right time! I'm not ready to be with him. He needs to straighten shit up before we get serious again. I'm so much more careful with relationships after being hurt so many times before. The feelings are so painful when you can't be with the person you care about the most. And knowing that he's feeling just as bad is the worst part about it all. Time will definitely tell in this case.
I know in all my other relationships I've been pretty serious about them. And I know my relationship with Matt was/is really important. But I just know it's gonna work out between us. In my past relationships, it was always easy for me to get over the guys. But with Matt it's so depressing for me to even think of how things could be between us. It might just be because I didn't want to break up with him, but it was something that I had to do. Him and I both know that we're gonna have another chance. But now is definitely not the time. Okay, just had to get that out. I've gotta update later because I've had quite an eventful past week or so. With graduating high school and all... so yeah, more laterrrrr.
Matt: I still have your ring. I look at it every night. It makes me so sad so I gotta put it away all the time.
Me: Why do you always look at it if it makes you sad?
Matt: It's something that means a lot to me. It's something I want to give you. And it's like, I can't... It's like that's all I have left of you, even though you didn't have it. It just reminded me of what we could have.
...gah!!! Why are boys s0o0oooo confusing?!?! I love him so much.. but it's not the right time! I'm not ready to be with him. He needs to straighten shit up before we get serious again. I'm so much more careful with relationships after being hurt so many times before. The feelings are so painful when you can't be with the person you care about the most. And knowing that he's feeling just as bad is the worst part about it all. Time will definitely tell in this case.
I know in all my other relationships I've been pretty serious about them. And I know my relationship with Matt was/is really important. But I just know it's gonna work out between us. In my past relationships, it was always easy for me to get over the guys. But with Matt it's so depressing for me to even think of how things could be between us. It might just be because I didn't want to break up with him, but it was something that I had to do. Him and I both know that we're gonna have another chance. But now is definitely not the time. Okay, just had to get that out. I've gotta update later because I've had quite an eventful past week or so. With graduating high school and all... so yeah, more laterrrrr.