Father's Day
I am currently living in Marquette, having arrived two days ago. After things disintegrated in Texas, I decided that it was best for me to move home and get back on my feet. So I made the 1,650 mile journey in two days, driving 15.5 hours the first day and 11.5 hours the second. I am amazed that my car was able to make the trip and not die, and even more amazed that I made it through seven large states (Texas, Oklahoma, Kansas, Missouri, Iowa, Wisconsin, Michigan) with expired plates and was not pulled over once. There must have been some luck on my side for the trip.
Needless to say I was quite exhausted, even after stopping in Bethany, MO for sleep the first night. I spent most of Saturday sleeping. Not all of it, as I did find time to go to go sit on the shores of Lake Superior and relax in the sand, but a vast majority of it.
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Today was a really hard day for me, it being Father's Day and all. I severely miss Brennan, who remains with Sarah in Texas. Every time someone mentioned Father's Day today, it was like a punch to the stomach. And it was mentioned a lot today. It was mentioned by family, in TV commercials, about a gazillion times during the Tigers' game. I realize that I am the one who ultimately made the decision to leave (though it wasn't entirely my idea), but being away from my son on our first Father's Day was heartbreaking to me. I did get a facebook message on my wall late tonight saying that Brennan wishes me a Happy Father's Day. I guess that was the best I could have hoped for, though it does not make up for not being able to hold him.
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My cats made the trip with me, and survived it. It couldn't have been too pleasant for them to travel that long each day, especially with no air conditioning. I know I was miserable at times, as the temperature hovered around 100 in east Texas and Oklahoma, I can only imagine what it was like for them. They are staying in Gwinn with my sister. So far, Andante is doing really well and running around like she owns the place. Presto, on the other hand, isn't adjusting too well and spends almost the entire time under the bed in the guest bedroom. I had him out for a bit today, but he was very freaked out the entire time. I hope that he starts to adjust a little better.
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Even as I start to look for a temporary job, I might be going to Houghton tomorrow and for a day or two. My advisor wants to meet with me about my job search and stabalizing my life. Hopefully I can catch up with a friend or two while I am in town.
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Things are a mess right now. I am a mess right now. I would be lying if I said that I haven't questioned this decision a lot over the last few days. Being in a car alone for 27 hours with 9 hours alone in a hotel sandwiched in between gives a person a lot of time to think about things. I haven't really heard from Texas since about noon on Thursday, and I haven't really called down there either. Things are just very out of place, and I don't know when they are going to start falling back into place.
Needless to say I was quite exhausted, even after stopping in Bethany, MO for sleep the first night. I spent most of Saturday sleeping. Not all of it, as I did find time to go to go sit on the shores of Lake Superior and relax in the sand, but a vast majority of it.
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Today was a really hard day for me, it being Father's Day and all. I severely miss Brennan, who remains with Sarah in Texas. Every time someone mentioned Father's Day today, it was like a punch to the stomach. And it was mentioned a lot today. It was mentioned by family, in TV commercials, about a gazillion times during the Tigers' game. I realize that I am the one who ultimately made the decision to leave (though it wasn't entirely my idea), but being away from my son on our first Father's Day was heartbreaking to me. I did get a facebook message on my wall late tonight saying that Brennan wishes me a Happy Father's Day. I guess that was the best I could have hoped for, though it does not make up for not being able to hold him.
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My cats made the trip with me, and survived it. It couldn't have been too pleasant for them to travel that long each day, especially with no air conditioning. I know I was miserable at times, as the temperature hovered around 100 in east Texas and Oklahoma, I can only imagine what it was like for them. They are staying in Gwinn with my sister. So far, Andante is doing really well and running around like she owns the place. Presto, on the other hand, isn't adjusting too well and spends almost the entire time under the bed in the guest bedroom. I had him out for a bit today, but he was very freaked out the entire time. I hope that he starts to adjust a little better.
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Even as I start to look for a temporary job, I might be going to Houghton tomorrow and for a day or two. My advisor wants to meet with me about my job search and stabalizing my life. Hopefully I can catch up with a friend or two while I am in town.
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Things are a mess right now. I am a mess right now. I would be lying if I said that I haven't questioned this decision a lot over the last few days. Being in a car alone for 27 hours with 9 hours alone in a hotel sandwiched in between gives a person a lot of time to think about things. I haven't really heard from Texas since about noon on Thursday, and I haven't really called down there either. Things are just very out of place, and I don't know when they are going to start falling back into place.