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[phhhsaw]

so tonight i drank a half of bottle of yukon jakc. mmhhm. the rest is for this weekend. so i was drinking and thinking, and disecting my life and what not. my status on the whole girl thing is as follows: i want an abundance of girls to like me even though i'm not cute in any way what so ever. but just the thril of someone being, wow james si cute, is super cool. although i woule have no intentions of actually liking the majority of these girls. there are, 3 or 4 girls i honestly like and could maybe see myself with them. if youre reading this, you may be one of those girls. but it wont happen bc im a fucking loser and somehow always tend to screw things up all the time. so at times i think its better off to not have a girlfriend or what not so i dont hurt her. bc for some reason i'm not about hurting girls. unlike some people. maybe i'm just TOO nice. if i started acting like an asshole and treating girls like shit, would you like me then? bc it seems girls like that for some reason. fuck that. ah excuse me while i go hang myself.

fuck.me.james