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We must burn through everything. These are the core days and I am feverishly hot. The way life is, manifesting itself in all these ways, some ways I find vile and repulsive, dreadful and I'm being smacked on fully in the face. Like the fact that three-fourth of all women here are mutilated and no longer have a clitoris or labia. What the fuck is this? I've been here in Egypt for nearly a month and didn't know about this. Now I'm being tricked and tested, yes sure, it's all a game, this game we play. But anger courses through me, together with sadness. How should I know better? Why should I know better? These people decide what they do with their lives, their bodies. I don't have to make it my business. But fuck that! I feel like raping, cutting open flesh and see the blood flood. Yes I might have been this sadistical rapist in my past life(lives?) but haven't we all. Aren't we all? Raping ourselves, our fellow humans, our loved ones and our Nature. I'm sick and tired of that. So what do I do with this anger? What do I do with this fire? Offer it, offer it to your motherfucking lotusfeet?
I know violence is no answer, I know nothing is at all more wrong now I found out this fact about Egypt than before I knew. I'm just angry, about being female, about being male, about the differences and the POWER. I'm so incredibly angry about that MALES have the POWER in this sick world. But, you know, they(the others, outside of me, not only males) don't have power over me, unless I give it to them. I will take my power, and use it for love and for truth, to the best of my abilities. But the time of male supremacy is fucking over and anyone who thinks otherwise will be cut aside, (hahahaha).
Peace man.
I know violence is no answer, I know nothing is at all more wrong now I found out this fact about Egypt than before I knew. I'm just angry, about being female, about being male, about the differences and the POWER. I'm so incredibly angry about that MALES have the POWER in this sick world. But, you know, they(the others, outside of me, not only males) don't have power over me, unless I give it to them. I will take my power, and use it for love and for truth, to the best of my abilities. But the time of male supremacy is fucking over and anyone who thinks otherwise will be cut aside, (hahahaha).
Peace man.