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[pheonyxxfyre]

I Tried

I tried to make Fire burn you.
Make my memories of you
Turn to ash in a white hot flare.
You're still with me.
Trapped within my skull
Within my mental barriers.

I tried to push you out a hole in my shields
To shut you out into the cold.
But you seeped in through the cracks
Tormenting me with memories of you.

I tried drowning you with Water
But you can swim.
You doggie paddle 'round my mind.
Making me remember my love for you.

I tried to bring the tears
That would not fall at your leaving.
But they will not come.
The tears I yearn to shed.
Not to mourn you, but to heal my wounds.

I tried to forget the feel of your body.
Forget how it made me feel.
But my lust has been awakened
And it will not return to it's sleep.
It wants another body, and does not care for a mind.

I tried to make Earth swallow you.
But she spit you out.
And where could you crawl but back to me?
And, maybe some demented part of me
Welcomed you with open arms.

I tried to make Air whisk you
Away from my mind.
But his gales were not strong enough
Were not cold enough in their spring time warmth.

I tried to call upon the winter time wind.
Like the ones you helped keep from me.
On those long winter nights.
But even his cold fury could only freeze
You for a little while.
Then you were back.
Gnawing at my heart in blessed agony.

I tried to write this poem
To rid my mind of you.
To end these months of near obsession
To end my pain
To lock you out of my mind
But it only wrapped thoughts
Of you closer to me.
It failed.
As all the others have failed.
Leaving me longing for you again.
Yet dreading that I will hold you again.