Sometimes, I hate being nice
If you ask most people, they'll say I'm a nice person. This is because I hate hurting people. Thus I find it hard to say no. For example, if someone asks go to go out somewhere ill say yes, even if I don't really want to, or I cant afford it. Then I end up having to make up a plausible excuse later on when I'm not actually looking at their hurt/disappointed face.
This is how I ended up with my current boyfriend. He asked me to go to the pics, and even though I kinda knew I shouldn't, I said yes. Don't get me wrong, I had a bloody good time. Which was a rare thing for me at the time, since I just got out of a horrible relationship (ill discuss the selfish ex-befriend at another date). So, after copious amount of alcohol and a couple hours later, he askew me out. And since I had a good time, was drunk and was just about to get a lift home of his dad and didn't want to be stranded in Newcastle at 3 o'clock in the morning, I thought what the hell. So I said yes.
And everything was all hunky dory - we went out all the time, had a laugh and got to know each other. Then a couple of weeks ago, it hit me. I'm absolutely not attracted to the guy. At all. Which, in a relationship, is kind of a bad sign.
This guy is a total woman. He constantly screams high pitched when he's excited (which is kinda embarrassing in public), he has more facial products than me and he likes pop music. In my valentines day card he wrote me the lyrics to 'come what may' from Moulin Rouge. Yes, I did say song lyrics. He's as camp as one of my friends - and my friend is gay. Only the other week he got chatted up by two gay blokes (which was hilarious). And not to mention he kisses like a fish (urg!!).
So, after discussing it with my best friend pinkfairy727 I have decided that I need to break up with him. The problem is is that I've never broken up with a guy before, they always seem to break up with me. I know the decent thing to do is to do it face to face. But not only am I a coward, he'll make a scene and probably cry. Then guilt trip me into giving him a second chance. But if I do it by text, well, that's kinda mean - since I am his first girlfriend and everything *sigh*.
To top it all of, I work with him. And his mother. So when I do end up finishing with him, I still have to see him on a regular basis, and have to look his mother in the eye. Every day. How do i get in these situations? Oh, i know, because i cant bloody say no!
Rant over.
This is how I ended up with my current boyfriend. He asked me to go to the pics, and even though I kinda knew I shouldn't, I said yes. Don't get me wrong, I had a bloody good time. Which was a rare thing for me at the time, since I just got out of a horrible relationship (ill discuss the selfish ex-befriend at another date). So, after copious amount of alcohol and a couple hours later, he askew me out. And since I had a good time, was drunk and was just about to get a lift home of his dad and didn't want to be stranded in Newcastle at 3 o'clock in the morning, I thought what the hell. So I said yes.
And everything was all hunky dory - we went out all the time, had a laugh and got to know each other. Then a couple of weeks ago, it hit me. I'm absolutely not attracted to the guy. At all. Which, in a relationship, is kind of a bad sign.
This guy is a total woman. He constantly screams high pitched when he's excited (which is kinda embarrassing in public), he has more facial products than me and he likes pop music. In my valentines day card he wrote me the lyrics to 'come what may' from Moulin Rouge. Yes, I did say song lyrics. He's as camp as one of my friends - and my friend is gay. Only the other week he got chatted up by two gay blokes (which was hilarious). And not to mention he kisses like a fish (urg!!).
So, after discussing it with my best friend pinkfairy727 I have decided that I need to break up with him. The problem is is that I've never broken up with a guy before, they always seem to break up with me. I know the decent thing to do is to do it face to face. But not only am I a coward, he'll make a scene and probably cry. Then guilt trip me into giving him a second chance. But if I do it by text, well, that's kinda mean - since I am his first girlfriend and everything *sigh*.
To top it all of, I work with him. And his mother. So when I do end up finishing with him, I still have to see him on a regular basis, and have to look his mother in the eye. Every day. How do i get in these situations? Oh, i know, because i cant bloody say no!
Rant over.