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Fall break. It was bittersweet and stressful. Carolyn, a close friend of mine lost her Mother last Sunday. I went home to spend time with her. She is a year younger that I am. I spent time with my Mom this weekend too. She visits her brother in Jail at a jail downtown in Detroit on Mondays but she needed to go and drop off a money order so I went with her Saturday morning. It was nice being able to talk to her and just hear her talk about what's going on in her life. I hung out with Carolyn and Jay Saturday evening. Jay got a new tattoo Saturday and then we met up at his house and talked for a couple hours. I went to church with Carolyn and Jay Sunday and we went out to lunch together. After lunch we went to the mall. Jay went to a book store and I got to spend some time with Carolyn. We dropped Jay off at home and I got to go to a park and swing on swing sets with Carolyn and talk for a while. I don't understand why this happened, but she's really being strong. May God continue to give her strength and protect her from bitterness.
I don't know what I've done but my right foot aches and I could barely sleep because it kept bothering me last night. My whole body ached this weekend and I think it's stress related. It could also be soreness from working out thursday.
Work is going well, but school is dragging on. I want to be graduated. I love learning, but I'm growing weary of the work that goes along with my classes. I'm so tired and drained from this weekend and I feel like I don't have any control over any aspect of my life. I feel like a chameleon, constantly changing to make other people happy. When I am myself I feel guilty because others are relying on me to be Ok with everything. I do have some good friends who I can really be myself around and I know they love me no matter what so I'll survive, but I need to grow stronger emotionally and not let things bring me down. I hate now I feel so out of control of my life. I'm struggling with the haunting lie that I'm all alone and cannot rely on anyone. I feel plagued by a false guilt that I'm letting everyone down. Dear God, please help me and my friends who are overwhelmed with stress. I want to lift it all up to you Lord. Please give me the strength and Wisdom that You give so freely when we truly come to You. I'm relying on You to get me through this period and I look forward to the time I can push through all of the unmentioned stress in my life. Help me to keep persevering and doing Your will, Amen.
I don't know what I've done but my right foot aches and I could barely sleep because it kept bothering me last night. My whole body ached this weekend and I think it's stress related. It could also be soreness from working out thursday.
Work is going well, but school is dragging on. I want to be graduated. I love learning, but I'm growing weary of the work that goes along with my classes. I'm so tired and drained from this weekend and I feel like I don't have any control over any aspect of my life. I feel like a chameleon, constantly changing to make other people happy. When I am myself I feel guilty because others are relying on me to be Ok with everything. I do have some good friends who I can really be myself around and I know they love me no matter what so I'll survive, but I need to grow stronger emotionally and not let things bring me down. I hate now I feel so out of control of my life. I'm struggling with the haunting lie that I'm all alone and cannot rely on anyone. I feel plagued by a false guilt that I'm letting everyone down. Dear God, please help me and my friends who are overwhelmed with stress. I want to lift it all up to you Lord. Please give me the strength and Wisdom that You give so freely when we truly come to You. I'm relying on You to get me through this period and I look forward to the time I can push through all of the unmentioned stress in my life. Help me to keep persevering and doing Your will, Amen.