its been almost 5 months since i've had a job !!!
about working:
hows that saying go again? oh yeah... when it rains, it pours!
i got the old navy job yesterday, and today i got an offer for another job, i'm taking both.
balanced out, i will have a full time job, it just sucks having two seperate ones.
so today is officially my last day to do whatever my lil heart desires.
i know this is probably wrong especially to those of you who do work ALL THE TIME and hardly get any free time to just do whatever you feel like, but i feel a mix of different emotions about it all, i will miss having an agenda that consists of waking up, packing my girlfriends lunch for her, watching ellen, dancing around the apartment, looking on ebay but never bidding, playing with carlos, smoking... a lot, snacking more than i should, and well doing whatever...
but on the other hand, i will have obligations to fill, i will have a schedule to follow, go somewhere and interact with the public for at least 40 hours a week, and not sit at home on my ass and doing basically nothing but waste time.
so yes, as my subject says, its been almost 5 months since i've had a job. can you believe that? 5 months!!! and still somehow, i've managed to always have money on me... how? you ask... i feel bad for even thinking it, but its true... and i'm afraid if i wrote it here, for you to read, you would think of me as... something. i dunno what.
about love:
i do know that i have the best girlfriend in the entire world for me... i'm blessed to have someone who cares for me so much that she would do just about anything for me, and its true.
in the past few months i've seen some of my friends who have long term relationships starting to crumble, break down, wear eachother out emotionally... it makes me feel sad. i'm so incredibly happy with courtney, i want everyone to know about it... but when i hear these things about their relationships, i feel bad, like: "how dare i declare my love in front of someone who is hurting" by seeing my friends go through all that, it makes me think of my relationship with my partner, and how i hope i never make her feel the way some of my friends are feeling.
i know in my heart and remind myself every day that i will never take courtney for granted. <3 i am in love <3
/mushyness>
you can go throw up now :)
hows that saying go again? oh yeah... when it rains, it pours!
i got the old navy job yesterday, and today i got an offer for another job, i'm taking both.
balanced out, i will have a full time job, it just sucks having two seperate ones.
so today is officially my last day to do whatever my lil heart desires.
i know this is probably wrong especially to those of you who do work ALL THE TIME and hardly get any free time to just do whatever you feel like, but i feel a mix of different emotions about it all, i will miss having an agenda that consists of waking up, packing my girlfriends lunch for her, watching ellen, dancing around the apartment, looking on ebay but never bidding, playing with carlos, smoking... a lot, snacking more than i should, and well doing whatever...
but on the other hand, i will have obligations to fill, i will have a schedule to follow, go somewhere and interact with the public for at least 40 hours a week, and not sit at home on my ass and doing basically nothing but waste time.
so yes, as my subject says, its been almost 5 months since i've had a job. can you believe that? 5 months!!! and still somehow, i've managed to always have money on me... how? you ask... i feel bad for even thinking it, but its true... and i'm afraid if i wrote it here, for you to read, you would think of me as... something. i dunno what.
about love:
i do know that i have the best girlfriend in the entire world for me... i'm blessed to have someone who cares for me so much that she would do just about anything for me, and its true.
in the past few months i've seen some of my friends who have long term relationships starting to crumble, break down, wear eachother out emotionally... it makes me feel sad. i'm so incredibly happy with courtney, i want everyone to know about it... but when i hear these things about their relationships, i feel bad, like: "how dare i declare my love in front of someone who is hurting" by seeing my friends go through all that, it makes me think of my relationship with my partner, and how i hope i never make her feel the way some of my friends are feeling.
i know in my heart and remind myself every day that i will never take courtney for granted. <3 i am in love <3
/mushyness>
you can go throw up now :)