This is my sorry for...2004...
It seems like I'm always saying sorry. I seem to make more mistakes than anyone else that I've ever known.
Lately, I've just been...off-track. Distracted, to say the least. A bit hormonal. And just a little lazy, too. All the faults that I've had before...they've gotten twice as worse. For a while, I had control over them. But now, since I haven't had them as bad for a while, they've come back on me.
Lazyness.
I haven't been doing all my homework. I've just been winging it. I haven't been studying. I got a 50 on one of my tests in geometry, and a 66 on another. Horrible. I know I can do better than that.
I've been leaving my room a mess. The only chores that I've done are washing dishes and washing/drying clothes. Horrible. I just dunno why, but I haven't felt like doing anything.
Daydreaming. Procrastinating.
I find myself drifting in class...in geometry, I sit in the back. This gives me so much time to just ... chill. Do nothing. I've slipped up, and I just find myself spending 5, 10, 15 minutes doing...nothing.
I have a project coming up. Homework. Chores. I just haven't been doing them. Lazyness, but more than that. I stop for a break and end up falling asleep for half of the day.
Lying.
Ugh. I hate this. I hate lying and all forms of it, but it seems that I have to lie more and more these days. Little lies, but they bother the living crap outta me. And, of course, there's that one lie that I always have to keep up. Which means I have to tell more lies to cover it up. Hate it. Hate it.
Anger.
Me and Addie both have this problem, at the moment [not meaning to speak for you Addie, lol.] It's because, like I said, these habits have been pushed down...I've been refraining from getting angry so quickly. But then, as it turns out, I've been doing that wrong, too. I try to stop myself from being angry altogether. And I can't do that. I just have a low patience level for people who are ignorant and who do things to intentionally piss me off. And I've been just... "rolling with the punches", for lack of a better term. When people are getting on my nerves, I just let it slide, saying "oh, they'll get theirs. God will take care of them." Or whatever I tell myself to stop myself from being angry.
But someone[s] seriously annoyed me today, to the point where I just couldn't take it anymore. I just got really mad and "bitched" at them.
Hormones? Maybe. Low patience level? Definitely.
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