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I found out this morning that Will died.
That crazy man should have never gotten a car. Have you ever been in the car with him? I have, and I thought I was going to die the whole time. Truth.
I’ve been in between crying and laughing all morning.
I went to his funeral at a Roman Catholic Church (which I thought was HILARIOUS) this morning, and I saw Will’s body. Will’s shell. Will’s puppet.
I left at the beginning of the service because it just wasn't Will. It wasn't. They had Will’s guitar sitting by the body and written all over it were the words "Limitlessness," "Love," "Breathe," The Om Symbol, & "Soul"... I'm crying right now writing about it.. but Will seriously would have wanted a band, people just running around in bright colors celebrating his life, talks about the universe and what realm he was in right now. I'm sure if Will had any idea of what we were doing he would be laughing his ass off, because it just wasn't him.
(Not that Will is a him or he any longer [or Will now that I think about it], I just have to write that because there is no unisex term or word that implies having no sex that is proper.)
I was the only one wearing every color other than black, I wish others were more colorful because the entire thing was just entirely too sad. They even had this horrible organ music playing in the backround.. Will’s idea about life was that every action and expression was sacred, one should be fully aware and thankful for it.
It's so hard having all of these feelings. I am so sad, but then, so happy because if anyone was ready for another life, it was Will. He was never afraid to die, never. He never saw it as an ending. But you know, he never saw it as a beginning either, because the universe is one whole, chaotic mixture of life and death, it's just part of a circle that is never ending. Infinity in one moment. Nothing is everything. Everything is god.
I wish all of you an aware and spiritually fulfilling life. Don’t be sorry for him or I or yourself if you knew him. This is what happens, our lives as human beings are fleeting and temporary. There is so much more out there, why would we want to be kept behind the limitations of our minds and bodies forever?!
♥Candiace