David
I had a really bad day yesterday. I have been sick for a long time, since early December, taken days off, gone to doctor several times, am on third or fourth round of antibiotics for bronchitis. So, I took Wed and Thurs off to go to doctor again... and rest. School was rough, kids were crazy, full moon definitely in affect.
So, I texted David and told him I really needed him and he came through! Was great, lots of cuddling, we watch a movie and fooled around. BUT, because of lots of long boring issues we have been having we are not being totally intimate right now. I know it is hard for him, It is VERY hard for me, and I had to tell him to stop as much as I didn't want him to.... all I really wanted was to take back the resolution I had made. I feel like I am hurting him. I don't like hurting him ... ever.
My heart is aching, because now he says it is too hard to be around me. He is angry and doesn't know why. How can I make amends if I don't know why???
So, I texted David and told him I really needed him and he came through! Was great, lots of cuddling, we watch a movie and fooled around. BUT, because of lots of long boring issues we have been having we are not being totally intimate right now. I know it is hard for him, It is VERY hard for me, and I had to tell him to stop as much as I didn't want him to.... all I really wanted was to take back the resolution I had made. I feel like I am hurting him. I don't like hurting him ... ever.
My heart is aching, because now he says it is too hard to be around me. He is angry and doesn't know why. How can I make amends if I don't know why???