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So i just got back from the first rehearsal. It was hard. Not because the material is hard, or because i didn't get the part i expected but because i felt incredibly lost.
When i came here, i found my place and i found myself and i found a new confidence in myself that i liked a lot. Within this first rehearsal, it just all dissintigrated. I think the problem i had is that i was defining myself by what others saw in me as opposed to what i saw in me. Today i felt completely replaced. I don't even know how it happened. Everything that made me distinctly me in QMT was now not special at all because everything that i have to offer, at least two other people have too.
I guess in this new year, i have to do that whole search again. I need to find something i really like about me that is distinctly me. I think i'm going to do wel in school. I'll establish myself as an academic this year
--Me
When i came here, i found my place and i found myself and i found a new confidence in myself that i liked a lot. Within this first rehearsal, it just all dissintigrated. I think the problem i had is that i was defining myself by what others saw in me as opposed to what i saw in me. Today i felt completely replaced. I don't even know how it happened. Everything that made me distinctly me in QMT was now not special at all because everything that i have to offer, at least two other people have too.
I guess in this new year, i have to do that whole search again. I need to find something i really like about me that is distinctly me. I think i'm going to do wel in school. I'll establish myself as an academic this year
--Me