Make You Proud
Enrolled at Uni yesterday, I had an info session before enrolments where I thought it would give me a chance to see who I could be-friend!
To my shock there was less than 12 people in the room!! This also included friends who where there for support!
Now I am in a dilemma, I just opened the mail and received a letter from UAC stating that I had been offered a place in B Business (Economics & Finance)!!
What to do?!
Plus, does anyone know how I got abouts changing my course if I do accept my new offer?!?!?
Last night, Grace, Ela, Gerald, PG, Joe & I went out for a late night drive.
We all met up at around 11pm at Gerald's after watching Prisonbreak *droolz - Wentworth Miller*
We couldn't really decide where to go so after about 15 minutes of standing around Grace suggested to go to Glenmore Park.
Grace drove actually let me re-phrase that Grace SPED to Glenmore Park!
I thought we where going to hit a car or flip over as she drifted around the corners!
We hung out at the park there that had a basketball court. It was too dark to play B-ball so we just played on the equipment.
We got tired and decided we would all try to fit inside the little kids cubby house!
Just imagine a kids little cubby house that would comfortably fit say 2 kids aged 4 being invaded by 6 adults!
It was hilarious! Arms and legs cramped up and the outcome in the end was numb buttocks!
We tried to have a D'n'M but we somehow got into a game of Spin the Bottle - Truth or Dare.
My, how hilarious some of the dares where!!
But unfortunately I cannot tell you guys what happened as we all know the rule of "Whatever Happens In The Cubby House, Stays In The Cubby House!"
At around 3am we decided to take a stroll around the area, checking out our future houses and making promises of buying each other houses.
We ended up at a little lake which reminded us of Dawson's Creek. We sat by the edge and all just talked about our the past, present & the future.
We all realised we wanted to achieve the same thing;
To make our Parents happy
It isn't much that my parents are asking for. I know and understand that they only want what's best for me.
Like all of our parent's have ever said to us;
"I only want you to have a better life than I did when I was your age"
But what if I let them down?
What if I don't finish Uni in 3 years?
What if I end up a failure?
There's alot riding on me right now, I'm the youngest out of 3 kids and have yet to actually start proper studies and finish.
I guess it's also the fact that my brother and sister both have graduated and now work but unfortunately they both have jobs that have entirely nothing to do with their degree's.
I actually do feel like a failure in my parents eyes. I know they don't think it but I do.
I didn't achieve the UAI I needed to get into my course and therefore didn't end up going Uni.
I could have focused more and studied more but instead I chose to become lazy and rather than studying ended up "partying" and studying 3 days before the exam.
The next year I chose to work full-time for a year. Which i got sick of.
Last year, I ended up studying but studied something so irrelevant for me.
This year I want to be a NERD. (A HOT nerd to be exact! LOL) Forget about partying and focus on completing assignments and homework and not leaving it till the night before.
All I really want is to be able to still have fun yet complete my studies without having to fail or repeat.
Is that too much to ask for??
I just wanna make them proud of me...