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exams are over! woohoo.
okay, so I created a different journal just for pictures of the transition and such-- it's also friends-only, but whatever; message me or something. it's anderson_again.
I might have actually succeeded at making a voice post thing.
okay, so I created a different journal just for pictures of the transition and such-- it's also friends-only, but whatever; message me or something. it's anderson_again.
I might have actually succeeded at making a voice post thing.
Of course, of course. But the thing is... I don't censor myself in this journal; its primary function was as a safe space for bitching and ranting, where it wouldn't hurt anyone, and I have no idea whether you'd find anything in it which might offend or hurt you. (When I first added Rebecca, it didn't occur to me at all that she might go back and read the stuff I'd written while we were together.) If you do-- please know that I would never mean to hurt you, and it's not written here because I was being an ass and not saying something to your face; it was written here because it didn't need to be said aloud, just put somewhere else other than my shoulders. Most of what was written here, up until about 2006 or so, was really, really negative. (I got this journal in 2001.)
Of course, I mean, I don't think you would care; I think you're circumspect enough to find that sort of thing funny, now.
But just one thing-- considering this space is a repository for all sorts of shit about me, although I love and trust you unconditionally, I would rather you not mention the stuff I have written here from my time at Vandy to people I knew there... I don't even think that you would, but I just have to say that.
And please understand that everything I've written here has been written with a great deal of self-awareness, although it often comes off as quite the opposite; when I'm typing this stuff, say, five years ago, I'm trying to negotiate expressing things terribly in a semi-public way-- feeling as though it's terribly public, because all of a sudden the best and worst things about me are manifest in words, you know? eh. I guess what I'm trying to say is that I'm very, very sensitive about the crap here prior to a couple years ago, and you just need to know that.
That said, again, I love you, so of course. :)
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