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I think... thats the problem. i'm completely broke and everyone is fucking useless. I followed my heart to the cliff and is kicked me off. i'm just doing anything to survive and it's bothering me. There isn't anything left, it is all taken away at this point and I have to start completely over. Never before have i wished to just not be here. to be somewhere else where I didn't have to feel like i fucked up by just getting out of bed. Where I didn't have to question what I felt. Where I could just say what I want to say without everything falling apart, to just get it all off my chest.
This is all a lesson. A lesson that has finally showed me that I cannot count on people that count on me. That I have to treat everyone like i've been treated. Fuck being in love, fuck looking for people to repay, fuck everything.
Sad truth, I don't want to stop being in love. I just want to feel it back.. I want to believe that people arn't fucking horrid and will pay me back and help me. I want to believe everything will be all right, things will work out.. but I have to stop thinking, because i will be wrong
This is all a lesson. A lesson that has finally showed me that I cannot count on people that count on me. That I have to treat everyone like i've been treated. Fuck being in love, fuck looking for people to repay, fuck everything.
Sad truth, I don't want to stop being in love. I just want to feel it back.. I want to believe that people arn't fucking horrid and will pay me back and help me. I want to believe everything will be all right, things will work out.. but I have to stop thinking, because i will be wrong