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I want to be happy. I want shit to fucking work out. Tonight settles the fact that I am novelty. Being invited out but then missing out because of people being fucking shit. I am trying to be happy. I am trying to get the fuck over this depression. I want to be miserable because its so much easier then trying to be happy and fuck shit happens. FUCK THIS CHANGE AND FUCK EVERYTHING ELSE. I'm better off just not even trying because it all ends up the same. For fucks sake, people treat me like shit constantly and thats not going to change. I'm sure i'll be made fun of for this, like everything else I do and say. I really just want to scream right now, but instead i'm just smoking alot and drinking because fuck it, what does it matter? The world makes me dizzy and ill, might as well just beat it to the punch because it all ends the same.
I want to get the fuck out of this place
I want to get the fuck out of this place