Sleep . . . where art thou?
It is 2:30am and I can't fall asleep. I just laid in my bed for about an hour with my eyes shut and no drifting the land of dreams. In fact, I can't seem to get comfortable at all. Ugh! I tried reading but that didn't last long.
I went to the doctor Thursday and he said that he thinks my blood pressure problems may be coming from my anxiety/depression. Now, with that I am not sure. During the months of September - March I was REALLY depressed and anxious but lately I have been doing fine (or so I thought). The blood pressure issues started when I was taking Prednisone for my sinus problems and since I have been off of that medication for a month now, I am still having the problems. They took blood at the doctors office and when they called me Saturday, they told me that everything was normal. So, that's good. But, I go in for a MRI Friday to check the ol' noggin. He said that if that comes up normal then he is either going to get me on a different anti-depressant or up my dosage. I have noticed lately that my anxiety has been coming and going but I didn't think it was to the point of affecting my blood pressure. So, we shall see. It's scary though . . . let me tell ya.
I am going to start going back to the gym whether I feel crappy or not because:
1) I need to lose weight
2) It helps with blood pressure issues
3) It is healthy for me
4) I need to get off my lazy ass
I KNOW my home life is affecting me and may be the root cause of it all. When I think about it, it really all started when my mom said she was going to divorce my dad and for a while everything cooled down and I started feeling better. But, now my dad is acting like a total asshole again and BOOM my blood pressure goes haywire. I really need to get out of here. Not only for my sanity but also for my health. With the divorce and this crap with the family . . . I am going to have a frickin' stroke one day. I mean, last week my blood pressure got up to 160/105. For those that don't know . . . that's HIGH. Especially for someone my age. I don't have any "sick days" left at work due to me being in the hospital and going to the E.R. twice and me being sick due to the blood pressure problems. I don't know. My life is just total shit right now and it doesn't look like it's going to get better any time soon.
I went to the doctor Thursday and he said that he thinks my blood pressure problems may be coming from my anxiety/depression. Now, with that I am not sure. During the months of September - March I was REALLY depressed and anxious but lately I have been doing fine (or so I thought). The blood pressure issues started when I was taking Prednisone for my sinus problems and since I have been off of that medication for a month now, I am still having the problems. They took blood at the doctors office and when they called me Saturday, they told me that everything was normal. So, that's good. But, I go in for a MRI Friday to check the ol' noggin. He said that if that comes up normal then he is either going to get me on a different anti-depressant or up my dosage. I have noticed lately that my anxiety has been coming and going but I didn't think it was to the point of affecting my blood pressure. So, we shall see. It's scary though . . . let me tell ya.
I am going to start going back to the gym whether I feel crappy or not because:
1) I need to lose weight
2) It helps with blood pressure issues
3) It is healthy for me
4) I need to get off my lazy ass
I KNOW my home life is affecting me and may be the root cause of it all. When I think about it, it really all started when my mom said she was going to divorce my dad and for a while everything cooled down and I started feeling better. But, now my dad is acting like a total asshole again and BOOM my blood pressure goes haywire. I really need to get out of here. Not only for my sanity but also for my health. With the divorce and this crap with the family . . . I am going to have a frickin' stroke one day. I mean, last week my blood pressure got up to 160/105. For those that don't know . . . that's HIGH. Especially for someone my age. I don't have any "sick days" left at work due to me being in the hospital and going to the E.R. twice and me being sick due to the blood pressure problems. I don't know. My life is just total shit right now and it doesn't look like it's going to get better any time soon.