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WTF IS IT WITH EVERYBODY YELLING AT ME TODAY!!!!!!!!!
WHATS THE FIRST FUCKING THING THAT HAPPENS WHEN I WAKE UPP TODAY?
MY MOM STARTS YELLING AT ME AND SCREAMING AT ME AND SLAMMING DOORS IN MY FUCKING FACE AND HITTING MY FURNITURE!!!!
ALL I DID WAS FUCKING WAKE UP!!! W...T...F!!!!!!!
and then lily was all bitching at me...cuz she thought i was likedissing her , when i was just jokin with her, i said i hate u for sending me the virus thing....i KNOW it wasnt her fault it was MY fucking fault either that it was sending it to everyone on my buddy list. and she took it as me being really pissed at her and was like saying "fuck you " and shit to me....WHAT THE FUCK LILY!!! cant u take a joke?
im so sick of my life right now.... i feel so detached from everyone in the group. the only one im close to right now is alison....and the brit....but only when he and i talk online....at school its like.....its always tyler and robert and now kc.....where the hell is everyone else?......im not mad at u guys its just that like...i never feel included anymore.....argh....
im in such a bad mood right now....i've been in a constant state of imploding since we got to the culver city location for school....i hate this feeling. its like...im going through so much shit and harsh emotions that im imploding......like the opposite of exploding...if i was exploding i wouldnt be afraid to like yell at people and tell them to their face, but im imploding. which means all of my fucked up emotions keep closing in on me and practically suffocating me.
i fucking HATE it.
w/e i'll get over it......eventually
~melli
WHATS THE FIRST FUCKING THING THAT HAPPENS WHEN I WAKE UPP TODAY?
MY MOM STARTS YELLING AT ME AND SCREAMING AT ME AND SLAMMING DOORS IN MY FUCKING FACE AND HITTING MY FURNITURE!!!!
ALL I DID WAS FUCKING WAKE UP!!! W...T...F!!!!!!!
and then lily was all bitching at me...cuz she thought i was likedissing her , when i was just jokin with her, i said i hate u for sending me the virus thing....i KNOW it wasnt her fault it was MY fucking fault either that it was sending it to everyone on my buddy list. and she took it as me being really pissed at her and was like saying "fuck you " and shit to me....WHAT THE FUCK LILY!!! cant u take a joke?
im so sick of my life right now.... i feel so detached from everyone in the group. the only one im close to right now is alison....and the brit....but only when he and i talk online....at school its like.....its always tyler and robert and now kc.....where the hell is everyone else?......im not mad at u guys its just that like...i never feel included anymore.....argh....
im in such a bad mood right now....i've been in a constant state of imploding since we got to the culver city location for school....i hate this feeling. its like...im going through so much shit and harsh emotions that im imploding......like the opposite of exploding...if i was exploding i wouldnt be afraid to like yell at people and tell them to their face, but im imploding. which means all of my fucked up emotions keep closing in on me and practically suffocating me.
i fucking HATE it.
w/e i'll get over it......eventually
~melli