Life as it is
Hmph, I can't find my book so I may as well do something engaging like write in here! I think I need to vent a little anyways. Life has been unexpectedly bad lately in many, many aspects.
But we'll start with something good! I went to Kalamazoo last week for the drum corps performance. Really couldn'tve asked for a better day. I got off work early, and got to Kalamazoo around 3:00. I learned in a brief second that the Dalton has been recarpeted so the floor looks very modern in a not modern at all building. Oh well, new carpets nice, right? Anyways, I hung with Allison for a bit with her family and friends and went to the show.
The sun was right in our eyes for about two hours and it was blistering hot. Definitely had good seats though. As high up as possible on the side two forty. Not gonna lie, it was really really boring for a long time. I really didn't start paying attention until corps like Blue Stars came on. Show designs in a lot of the bottom corps are very two-dimensional in that there's some moving, lots of long sustained major chords and not a lot of interesting stuff going on between the two. It was a relief to see some of the other groups go for some interesting things, and the Cavaliers didn't disappoint completely. I felt like the Cavaliers looked like they just had two free days, which led some really really rough transitions that made me feel a little uncomfortable. So dip shit fell at the very end and didn't get back in 'til the corps closed in the last set. That kinda shit's never ok! Ugh, still a good show, just not their best performance. After the show was a blast. I got to hang out a lot more and talked to more of the guys. Now it's another month until I see the corps again in their final performance at Indiana for Finals.
Since then, I've been working a lot. I've been picking up crazy good hours and just recently picked up two shifts for overnight inventory prep. I know it's going to completely suck, but the pay is better and well... it's hours. The opposite side of this is the stress. I really don't know why, but work just stresses me out like crazy. I think mostly it's because I don't make a lot of money, and I do the same thing every single day. It's worst when I have to cashier because I don't ever have to use my brain. I can't stand repetitive jobs where nothing ever changes. It gets old and wears on my nerves. On the floor or at the desk, I have responsibility and, occasionally, I get to use my brain to solve problems! I took my test for teacher certification yesterday... I really wish I could put it to use right away.
I've also had problems with my friends these past couple weeks, and it's just been horribly annoying. People who just say "oh I'm just telling you what I think" are basically just saying "I'm a bitch and I'm ok with that." Good for you? I've also come to hypothesize people who have that mentality think they can get away with that kind of stuff have to be just that insecure about themselves and the decisions they make in life. They can't figure out what's going on in their life, so they turn around and try to "fix" other people. The truth of the matter is not me, nor anyone will ever be secure enough to have earned the right to tell someone else what they're doing is "wrong" for whatever reason. (I am of course only referring to life decision.) I think I used to be like that, and this journal is probably evidence to the fact, but I'm pretty sure I grew out of it. For those people stuck in this phase, I'm really not mad at you, I just plain straight feel sorry for you. And no, I'm not judging, I'm simply observing and stating I want absolutely nothing to do with you. I really couldn't care less what you do with your life, not for me to decide at all. Just stay out of mine.
Aside other things are stressing me out. I really can't grow out of having car troubles. I got my exhaust fixed on my Saturn and dropped two hundred forty-five dollars in it. Two hours later I sat at an Autozone, ironically, with a car that wouldn't start. The starter I had replaced two and a half months ago, at a cost of four hundred forty five dollars had failed. Now you might say, Joe, doesn't that fall under a warranty? And I would say, why yes! It does indeed! But oh wait, the dealership needs to get it to fail before they can replace it. It's been starting like a charm for the dealer the past couple days. Sweeeeeet!
Oh well. So the car is staying with the dealer 'til it gets fixed. I'm driving around a 1994 Pontiac Bonneville. Oh baby, you wanna talk about chick magnet. Chicks dig size right? Pretty hard to beat the Jolly Green Giant. I bet this car is actually sea worthy in fact.
On the plus side, it gets freakishly good gas mileage... 30 mpg. For a super tanker, that's pretty good. How come they don't make cars like that anymore?
Aside from this, life is overall tense. I have some stuff coming up I'm nervous about and rather upset I have to deal with. I can only hope this all works out for the best. Somehow I think it won't, because that's how things work for me. I guess we'll see. No expectations, that's me! I just have to wonder... how long is everything going to go poorly 'til it gets better? I'm getting worn down emotionally and I really just need something to chill me out. I'm thinking a bike ride... Hopefully the winds calmed down. It's deceptively nice out today.
Anyways, that's all for now. I hope all's well!
Splooie
joe
But we'll start with something good! I went to Kalamazoo last week for the drum corps performance. Really couldn'tve asked for a better day. I got off work early, and got to Kalamazoo around 3:00. I learned in a brief second that the Dalton has been recarpeted so the floor looks very modern in a not modern at all building. Oh well, new carpets nice, right? Anyways, I hung with Allison for a bit with her family and friends and went to the show.
The sun was right in our eyes for about two hours and it was blistering hot. Definitely had good seats though. As high up as possible on the side two forty. Not gonna lie, it was really really boring for a long time. I really didn't start paying attention until corps like Blue Stars came on. Show designs in a lot of the bottom corps are very two-dimensional in that there's some moving, lots of long sustained major chords and not a lot of interesting stuff going on between the two. It was a relief to see some of the other groups go for some interesting things, and the Cavaliers didn't disappoint completely. I felt like the Cavaliers looked like they just had two free days, which led some really really rough transitions that made me feel a little uncomfortable. So dip shit fell at the very end and didn't get back in 'til the corps closed in the last set. That kinda shit's never ok! Ugh, still a good show, just not their best performance. After the show was a blast. I got to hang out a lot more and talked to more of the guys. Now it's another month until I see the corps again in their final performance at Indiana for Finals.
Since then, I've been working a lot. I've been picking up crazy good hours and just recently picked up two shifts for overnight inventory prep. I know it's going to completely suck, but the pay is better and well... it's hours. The opposite side of this is the stress. I really don't know why, but work just stresses me out like crazy. I think mostly it's because I don't make a lot of money, and I do the same thing every single day. It's worst when I have to cashier because I don't ever have to use my brain. I can't stand repetitive jobs where nothing ever changes. It gets old and wears on my nerves. On the floor or at the desk, I have responsibility and, occasionally, I get to use my brain to solve problems! I took my test for teacher certification yesterday... I really wish I could put it to use right away.
I've also had problems with my friends these past couple weeks, and it's just been horribly annoying. People who just say "oh I'm just telling you what I think" are basically just saying "I'm a bitch and I'm ok with that." Good for you? I've also come to hypothesize people who have that mentality think they can get away with that kind of stuff have to be just that insecure about themselves and the decisions they make in life. They can't figure out what's going on in their life, so they turn around and try to "fix" other people. The truth of the matter is not me, nor anyone will ever be secure enough to have earned the right to tell someone else what they're doing is "wrong" for whatever reason. (I am of course only referring to life decision.) I think I used to be like that, and this journal is probably evidence to the fact, but I'm pretty sure I grew out of it. For those people stuck in this phase, I'm really not mad at you, I just plain straight feel sorry for you. And no, I'm not judging, I'm simply observing and stating I want absolutely nothing to do with you. I really couldn't care less what you do with your life, not for me to decide at all. Just stay out of mine.
Aside other things are stressing me out. I really can't grow out of having car troubles. I got my exhaust fixed on my Saturn and dropped two hundred forty-five dollars in it. Two hours later I sat at an Autozone, ironically, with a car that wouldn't start. The starter I had replaced two and a half months ago, at a cost of four hundred forty five dollars had failed. Now you might say, Joe, doesn't that fall under a warranty? And I would say, why yes! It does indeed! But oh wait, the dealership needs to get it to fail before they can replace it. It's been starting like a charm for the dealer the past couple days. Sweeeeeet!
Oh well. So the car is staying with the dealer 'til it gets fixed. I'm driving around a 1994 Pontiac Bonneville. Oh baby, you wanna talk about chick magnet. Chicks dig size right? Pretty hard to beat the Jolly Green Giant. I bet this car is actually sea worthy in fact.
On the plus side, it gets freakishly good gas mileage... 30 mpg. For a super tanker, that's pretty good. How come they don't make cars like that anymore?
Aside from this, life is overall tense. I have some stuff coming up I'm nervous about and rather upset I have to deal with. I can only hope this all works out for the best. Somehow I think it won't, because that's how things work for me. I guess we'll see. No expectations, that's me! I just have to wonder... how long is everything going to go poorly 'til it gets better? I'm getting worn down emotionally and I really just need something to chill me out. I'm thinking a bike ride... Hopefully the winds calmed down. It's deceptively nice out today.
Anyways, that's all for now. I hope all's well!
Splooie
joe