i miss that stupid ache...
i've been feeling strange lately. i almost want to use the word disappointed, but i'm not sure. in myself mostly. i don't even know over what. i guess a lot of things. i sometimes worry that i set unrealistic goals for myself and then just wind up letting myself down. i set myself up for failure.
i always tell myself how much i want to weight, what size i should be, what i should look like by this time and this date and it never happens. i guess i'm just frustrated because i feel like i see progress in everyone except myself. i guess it's hard to have a good perspective on your own progress when you just want to keep pushing yourself further.
i know i've come a long way in my life, but i feel like i still have SO far to go. which is ok i guess. scary at times. all i know is that i've had thoughts lately that i havne't had in a long time. and i don't know if i'm just in slump or need a change of atmosphere or what.
the one thing i miss about being with someone is the butterflies in my stomach. i love that feeling. when you're heart skips from seeing someone. that's the best thing ever. i miss having that.
i think i'm just getting more and more anxious for school to start. i love the atmosphere, and i know this year will be the best yet. because i have nothing holding me back and will be able to meet so many new people. that's what i look forward to most- meeting new people.
"days like this i don't know what to do with myself, all day and all night."-fiona apple
i always tell myself how much i want to weight, what size i should be, what i should look like by this time and this date and it never happens. i guess i'm just frustrated because i feel like i see progress in everyone except myself. i guess it's hard to have a good perspective on your own progress when you just want to keep pushing yourself further.
i know i've come a long way in my life, but i feel like i still have SO far to go. which is ok i guess. scary at times. all i know is that i've had thoughts lately that i havne't had in a long time. and i don't know if i'm just in slump or need a change of atmosphere or what.
the one thing i miss about being with someone is the butterflies in my stomach. i love that feeling. when you're heart skips from seeing someone. that's the best thing ever. i miss having that.
i think i'm just getting more and more anxious for school to start. i love the atmosphere, and i know this year will be the best yet. because i have nothing holding me back and will be able to meet so many new people. that's what i look forward to most- meeting new people.
"days like this i don't know what to do with myself, all day and all night."-fiona apple