i can't help but hate him...

[phantomlove]

i've been thinking about peter a lot lately..and it pisses me off.

there were so many things wrong with our relationship that i never saw until now.

"the web"
i saw a fly devoured today
caught in the widow's web
short-lived struggle, it gave into fate
and the poisons were injected
'it's for the best' you said,
history makes it work.
'don't fight me anymore'
your eyes dance with a smirk.
i spit fire in your teeth instead
i'm not your easy prey
you cover your face, deaf ears
refuse to hear the truth i say.
i scream blood in you bed
and leave our ashes for you to consume.
we don't provide much substance
but you always seemed amused.
not used to your dinner running,
i'm not the dish you once enjoyed.
the cloth was taken from my eyes
for the first time my senses employed.
i walked back to that widow,
still growing bulbous off insect blood
and crushed her body with my palm,
the way your hatred killed our love.
and i tore the web down
buried it in heated sand
thinking of all the lies you gave
the miserable way you held my hand.
now i can never heal that wound
the most poisonous fangs i'll ever know.
so i'll wear long sleeves and never trust,
fearing spider scars might show.

"every line is about who i don't wanna write about anymore"-brand new