Mother's Day 2010
I dedicate this Mother's Day to Nanay.
She was a very important person in my life, and though we only saw each other a couple of times, she was one person who I knew loved me more than anyone else, regardless of anything.
She was the one person whom I felt I had a deep-set connection to in the Philippines,
the one person I looked forward to seeing. And the one person who wanted to see me.
I felt such a tremendous loss, but that was no match to her love for me.
I think she would have been the one person to really have enjoyed my presence and whom I could prattle to for days on end regardless of the language barrier; after all,
Nanay Moring was a very intelligent person and still holds a dear place in my heart.
I love you, Nanay.
If I learned anything from my experience in the Philippines, or from my life in general,
it's that relationships with others are very important. I don't think I've actually had a real relationship with anyone (and I mean anyone) but I am willing to put in the time and effort to make one happen, so long as it is possible.
So I suppose I should start with the people closest to me, for those are the most difficult of all, though as of late I've learned it's about picking your battles and at times, weaving and wending your way around.
As for my relationship with my mother, it gets a bit prickly at times, however...
I will do my best to try and get along and be understanding, though I know she may not see some of the issues. But I am still proud to be her daughter and hope that one day she will accept me as well as the fact that I also have my own life to live. We don't have a perfect relationship, and I doubt anyone does, but I thank her for all that she has done. She has been a strong and persevering woman and such an inspiration.
I love you, Mom.
And I wish all of you well today.