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I really don't like my actions sometimes...
Like when things such as this most recent episode happen... I want to be away from it all, give things time to calm down... But my mind won't ever let me do it... I've always got to know the why's and reasons... even for things that have no answers at the time... It bugs the hell outta me, and I'm sure makes more of the problems worse than better.
I just always have that feeling that, if I do leave things alone, I won't be needed or wanted anymore, or I'll be passing up something that I should have acted on, but instead didn't. I'm sure that's usualy NOT the case, but I can't help worry about it... especially depending on how the other things and people react.
...I just don't want to miss my chance to actually be happy. Or to make someone else happy.
Like when things such as this most recent episode happen... I want to be away from it all, give things time to calm down... But my mind won't ever let me do it... I've always got to know the why's and reasons... even for things that have no answers at the time... It bugs the hell outta me, and I'm sure makes more of the problems worse than better.
I just always have that feeling that, if I do leave things alone, I won't be needed or wanted anymore, or I'll be passing up something that I should have acted on, but instead didn't. I'm sure that's usualy NOT the case, but I can't help worry about it... especially depending on how the other things and people react.
...I just don't want to miss my chance to actually be happy. Or to make someone else happy.