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my 'friends' make me sick. not my new ones. my old ones, they make me sick to my stomach. whenever i see them together or anywhere, i feel nausated. why? because they have a giant tendancy to make you feel left out. they are still as clicky as ever. they go places and do things, but no one ever calls me. and if they decide to something, it is very inconvient.
i cannot stand them and i am seriously thinking of cutting ties. but not aloud. no, more like not showing up to see them or anything. i don't call them anyhow. if i do decide to call, they never answer. they always tell me the same crap that they are busy. well so am i. maybe i'll care to see them when i graduate and am bored. but right now their faces smiling at me, them hugging, makes me sick to my stomach.
i wish i could get over it like i used to. and just have fun when i do get to seem them. but today, i hate even thinking about them. i dunno.
i'm going to turn this annoyance and hate positive. i am going to get into the portfolio program and be more successful than any of them. or at least happier.
i cannot stand them and i am seriously thinking of cutting ties. but not aloud. no, more like not showing up to see them or anything. i don't call them anyhow. if i do decide to call, they never answer. they always tell me the same crap that they are busy. well so am i. maybe i'll care to see them when i graduate and am bored. but right now their faces smiling at me, them hugging, makes me sick to my stomach.
i wish i could get over it like i used to. and just have fun when i do get to seem them. but today, i hate even thinking about them. i dunno.
i'm going to turn this annoyance and hate positive. i am going to get into the portfolio program and be more successful than any of them. or at least happier.