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ok so i lied about my journal being dormant. i have nobody to talk to, really. so i'll just talk to this. home from college. working at the bank. broke up with my boyfriend. not really doing anything... ever. i was thinking about becoming a pothead or something but i don't really want to. i'm sitting here with my mom. she asked me why i was seeming so down lately. she said ''any particular reason?'' i shook my head and nothing else was said. she's too busy watching CSI to pry into my personal life. not that she'd really care to. she's one of the people that doesn't want to believe that anything is wrong - and i guess that's one way to look at life. but i'm not really capable of looking at anything like that. and she has no idea who i am. hopefully when i have a daughter, i'll know who she is. i'll make sure of it. that is, if i'm alive long enough to birth children. if i ever find someone willing to have children with me. or well i just want to get married one day. married for at least 10 years. i don't ever want to get divorced. ever.. i hate thinking about that.
i really want to rent a movie or something. but according to movie gallery i never turned in cold mountain. but it's a long story. i just want someone to hang out with besides my mom. who is talking about her coworkers dog. which i could really care less about, honestly. because i hate weiner dogs they are not cute. my sister broke up with her boyfriend yet they still hang out everyday. i talked to jeff today on the phone. it was a difficult conversation. he said he'd call back in a few days. it's only been a week and it feels like a lifetime.
you know how people say money doesn't buy happiness? well i believe that's bullshit. complete bullshit. if i had an unlimited amount of money i would be on vacation or something. my family would have a house in california or north carolina or something. and i'd be at the beach now, at a bonfire or something. anything besides sitting on this couch that reeks of my dog watching CSI Miami about some murders. and rapes. nothing ever interesting. murders and rapes. ugh! well, oh well. i get to go to OBX in about 3 weeks. and i plan on saving up some paychecks to take a trip at the end of summer. i don't know if any of my ''friends'' with have enough money to join me. if not, i might just have to go by myself. i'm pretty sure my mom is looking at me but i'm not sure.
i hate guys that watch porn
i really want to rent a movie or something. but according to movie gallery i never turned in cold mountain. but it's a long story. i just want someone to hang out with besides my mom. who is talking about her coworkers dog. which i could really care less about, honestly. because i hate weiner dogs they are not cute. my sister broke up with her boyfriend yet they still hang out everyday. i talked to jeff today on the phone. it was a difficult conversation. he said he'd call back in a few days. it's only been a week and it feels like a lifetime.
you know how people say money doesn't buy happiness? well i believe that's bullshit. complete bullshit. if i had an unlimited amount of money i would be on vacation or something. my family would have a house in california or north carolina or something. and i'd be at the beach now, at a bonfire or something. anything besides sitting on this couch that reeks of my dog watching CSI Miami about some murders. and rapes. nothing ever interesting. murders and rapes. ugh! well, oh well. i get to go to OBX in about 3 weeks. and i plan on saving up some paychecks to take a trip at the end of summer. i don't know if any of my ''friends'' with have enough money to join me. if not, i might just have to go by myself. i'm pretty sure my mom is looking at me but i'm not sure.
i hate guys that watch porn