How long has it been...
I just don't journal anymore do I? Why is that I was wondering today. I think it is because I went to see "Julie and Julia" last night, which is about a blog that really goes beyond just random thought projected into the void of the interwebs. It made me think about why I don't update constantly anymore. I think I don't have the need anymore to focus on things that take me away to a different life or world, because I really love my life and my little corner of the world. I don't scream for attention, yelling at the sky as if begging for love or vindication will make it all better, as if someone will her me and fix all my problems. But I fixed them myself.
Maybe that's what growing up is. No longer looking to adults or parents or wiser minds to fix you or save you. I learned over a while to let go of the things that hurt me, the thorns of the flowers I thought were so lovely. When I let go I realized there was more. More and more.
I am very happy now. I live with a wonderful woman and an adorable job. I am going to be a great layer. I work now In a little law firm doing research and really helping. I really like it. I love learning. I love the place I love. I love my family. The rest will be bonuses.
Everyday awakening more and more, I hope.
Maybe that's what growing up is. No longer looking to adults or parents or wiser minds to fix you or save you. I learned over a while to let go of the things that hurt me, the thorns of the flowers I thought were so lovely. When I let go I realized there was more. More and more.
I am very happy now. I live with a wonderful woman and an adorable job. I am going to be a great layer. I work now In a little law firm doing research and really helping. I really like it. I love learning. I love the place I love. I love my family. The rest will be bonuses.
Everyday awakening more and more, I hope.