Nov 12, 2008 00:18
This is my first in what will probably become a series of posts. The basic topic is the same and more or less I am writing in hope that I can spread my acknowledge out to the masses, as well as find a unified theory on Human Interactions and General Behavior.
Sarah and the Circle. The Circle and Sarah. It all comes down to these two. Since the day I was born I was taught to question things. Follow logic and analyze situations. Understand everything. For the majority of my life, I tended to just meld in. Fit in. With the Jocks, with the nerds, with the populars, with the dorks. Although I meshed well with all of the groups, I never really learned exactly how it all worked. Never really 'got' people.
In electronics you can predict and understand how everything will turn out. In math, two plus two is four, simple as that. The true test was to try to break the human equation.
There is a lot to say about what happened between me and Sarah, before and after. I changed, learned so much. Through this event, I gained so much in terms of how life was. Who I was. What I want my life to be. In the end I came up with a lot of loose phrases. An Ideal that I couldn't really put into words. One that I now call my "Universal Video Game" Theory. It is now a philosophy I think I can base my life on and I will go into detail when I have a chance.
Then we have this semester. I am not a sage. Nor a wise man. BUT I do think that I am able to see things better than most. Whether it helped or not, for one reason or another, people came to me. Some to talk. Some advice. Some were down, and I attempted to pick them up. In the end, I ended up the unofficial therapist and elder of the group in some ways. I was able to analyze situations from outside. See them, apply my logic. Ultimately, understand it all. At the same time, dealing with my own issues.
Marissa/Mouse can also be a testament to this. In so many ways, I "hopefully" was able to share knowledge that she might be able to use, pass on. If nothing else, in talking to her, I was able to reword and solidify my opinions and insight into what they are now. Through talking with her, I was able to find wordings, things such as my still developing moral I shall call my "Synthetic Apple" Principle of Human Integrity.
I hope you all get to read these, especially the posts to come. I know they are long, but the possible things to gain are endless. I am ever changing and learning, but the way that such simple things can able to change my life and hold my ideals is staggering. Hopefully, you guys gain your own insight from me, as I have gained from all of you.