It's a first
I'm not sure why I'm doing this. Nobody is going to read this, but maybe that is the point. It's kind of strange to think of a live journal. Typically a journal is something that you don't want anybody reading. Not the case here. Anybody and everybody can read this. Weird.
Anyway, life's kinda lonely. I need a girl. The thought of dying alone and pathetic bothers the hell out of me. It's hard to have confidence when you're 21 and you've never had a girlfriend and all the girls that you ever tried to be with don't like you in the same way. It's painful really. Typing this makes me realize how pathetic I really am.
If only I could determine if the girl I'm currently infatuated with feels the same way about me. She calls me quite a bit (which is something I'm not used to, a girl actually wanting to talk to me) and we've been friends for a long time, which makes me wonder. It seems to me that if we've been friends for so long that it would have led to something by now. It's probably my fault though. I should just nut up and ask her out, but I'm not sure I could take that rejection. Not to mention I don't want to ruin the friendship we have. Although it's getting to the point where if I don't find someone soon I never will.
This sucks
Anyway, life's kinda lonely. I need a girl. The thought of dying alone and pathetic bothers the hell out of me. It's hard to have confidence when you're 21 and you've never had a girlfriend and all the girls that you ever tried to be with don't like you in the same way. It's painful really. Typing this makes me realize how pathetic I really am.
If only I could determine if the girl I'm currently infatuated with feels the same way about me. She calls me quite a bit (which is something I'm not used to, a girl actually wanting to talk to me) and we've been friends for a long time, which makes me wonder. It seems to me that if we've been friends for so long that it would have led to something by now. It's probably my fault though. I should just nut up and ask her out, but I'm not sure I could take that rejection. Not to mention I don't want to ruin the friendship we have. Although it's getting to the point where if I don't find someone soon I never will.
This sucks