Too Much On My Mind's Plate...
So I'm not sure how this is going to start....Not with some lyrics from a song, not a smart quote I heard somewhere..... Its really hard to say what I am thinking.....
I guess I'm just very unsure of myself. I apologize to anyone I have offended, I promise it wasn't intentional.
I've always been afraid of judgment and no matter how many times I hear "don't care what people think" it will never happen. I cant escape the thought of someone disliking me for a reason that's unapparent to me or that I cant change about myself. I was so unsure when I joined this group, the "drama group", but they welcomed me with open arms. I learned some things from the wrong people and I came to find out the things they taught weren't right at all. Its understandable why no one leaves the group. It feels like once your in that's it. You love the people in it, even if they hurt you... ya know?
Why do we put of false happiness around people who have done us wrong? I'm not saying we should turn into ice cold bitches, but why lie to them? If you aren't happy with how someone is treating you, then tell them. I haven't done this but I can guarantee you I'm starting as of now. This isn't a fake promise that a lot of the people give in our group of swell friends, this is real. If you do something that is mean or cruel I'm going to tell you, and maybe that will make you see what you're doing a little clearer.
All I can ask is that you do the same for me. I wasn't aware that I bothered so many people but if I do please tell me. I don't want to go on thinking that were still friends under false pretenses. Maybe I will see what I do wrong in myself and as a person.
I guess all I can say is I'm trying as best I can to figure out what life means for me as of late.
Just Me...
I guess I'm just very unsure of myself. I apologize to anyone I have offended, I promise it wasn't intentional.
I've always been afraid of judgment and no matter how many times I hear "don't care what people think" it will never happen. I cant escape the thought of someone disliking me for a reason that's unapparent to me or that I cant change about myself. I was so unsure when I joined this group, the "drama group", but they welcomed me with open arms. I learned some things from the wrong people and I came to find out the things they taught weren't right at all. Its understandable why no one leaves the group. It feels like once your in that's it. You love the people in it, even if they hurt you... ya know?
Why do we put of false happiness around people who have done us wrong? I'm not saying we should turn into ice cold bitches, but why lie to them? If you aren't happy with how someone is treating you, then tell them. I haven't done this but I can guarantee you I'm starting as of now. This isn't a fake promise that a lot of the people give in our group of swell friends, this is real. If you do something that is mean or cruel I'm going to tell you, and maybe that will make you see what you're doing a little clearer.
All I can ask is that you do the same for me. I wasn't aware that I bothered so many people but if I do please tell me. I don't want to go on thinking that were still friends under false pretenses. Maybe I will see what I do wrong in myself and as a person.
I guess all I can say is I'm trying as best I can to figure out what life means for me as of late.
Just Me...