Day Job Woes
I've had a couple mini vacations this month, one where I went home and one where I went back to Ohio for my friends' wedding. I expected that when I came back from these mini vacations I would return refreshed and ready to work. I couldn't have been more wrong.
For those of you that don't know, my boss left. He gave his two weeks notice and pulled me into his office to let me know he recommended I take over some of his biggest responsibilities until they find a replacement for him. While I am being compensated for it, and it's only temporary, it's driving me crazy. At first I was excited to not have to search for a third summer job and to bring in some new challenges into my life. Then I realized how much of a mess he left behind and I got a taste of the stress of these responsibilities. Now there's an issue that by Thursday I'm almost ready to walk out the door and never look back. Of course I'm too loyal to ever do that, but still it's costing me a bit too much of my sanity at the moment. I think I'm good at customer service, I work very hard at it and I enjoy helping people, but it's not really something I'm passionate about. It's supporting art, in a way, so it's not entirely out of range, but it's not fulfilling in the way singing makes me feel, or being expressive onstage. But then I think could I pay my rent just by doing that and not compromise my integrity. There are a lot of auditions I don't go to because I have no interest in the project, but that's something most artists sacrifice just so they get the paycheck or the chance to perform. I'm picky that way. Perhaps if I had more art in my life and didn't allow myself to be stressed about work it would be fine.
I wonder though if that's just what being an adult is. Working hard to the point of exhaustion just so you can live. Is this issue that I'm facing something all adults face every day? Or is it because my job is not my passion? Or is because I live in a very expensive city? I don't regret living here, and I know if I still lived in Ohio or at home with my parents, it would not be like what it is when on vacation. I just want to know what this price I'm paying is for. If you asked me what my dream job is I would say doing what I love and getting paid for it. And I'm 24 so I'm not exactly expecting to be working my dream job just yet. But am I doing the right things to get there is what I'm really concerned about.
Do you face the same issue or something similar? Thoughts and insights are always welcomed.
For those of you that don't know, my boss left. He gave his two weeks notice and pulled me into his office to let me know he recommended I take over some of his biggest responsibilities until they find a replacement for him. While I am being compensated for it, and it's only temporary, it's driving me crazy. At first I was excited to not have to search for a third summer job and to bring in some new challenges into my life. Then I realized how much of a mess he left behind and I got a taste of the stress of these responsibilities. Now there's an issue that by Thursday I'm almost ready to walk out the door and never look back. Of course I'm too loyal to ever do that, but still it's costing me a bit too much of my sanity at the moment. I think I'm good at customer service, I work very hard at it and I enjoy helping people, but it's not really something I'm passionate about. It's supporting art, in a way, so it's not entirely out of range, but it's not fulfilling in the way singing makes me feel, or being expressive onstage. But then I think could I pay my rent just by doing that and not compromise my integrity. There are a lot of auditions I don't go to because I have no interest in the project, but that's something most artists sacrifice just so they get the paycheck or the chance to perform. I'm picky that way. Perhaps if I had more art in my life and didn't allow myself to be stressed about work it would be fine.
I wonder though if that's just what being an adult is. Working hard to the point of exhaustion just so you can live. Is this issue that I'm facing something all adults face every day? Or is it because my job is not my passion? Or is because I live in a very expensive city? I don't regret living here, and I know if I still lived in Ohio or at home with my parents, it would not be like what it is when on vacation. I just want to know what this price I'm paying is for. If you asked me what my dream job is I would say doing what I love and getting paid for it. And I'm 24 so I'm not exactly expecting to be working my dream job just yet. But am I doing the right things to get there is what I'm really concerned about.
Do you face the same issue or something similar? Thoughts and insights are always welcomed.