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I don't really use this to write in anymore, but Jim's brother died of a heroin overdose a few weeks ago and it's something that's really got to me, I guess. I went down to Kent last week for the funeral, which was on Thursday. I never met Tom, but it's still gotten to me quite bad. I was crying at the funeral, and it felt a bit weird, because I'd only spoken to him once, maybe twice. I didn't know him. But I was crying more for Jim and his family, because what they must be feeling is terrible. When they closed the curtain on his coffin, and I heard Louise crying, and Luke shouting for his dad... everyone just gave in, then. There's nothing else to do. I tried my best to help Jim, and listen to him, but what can you really do? It hurts me that I can't stop him from hurting, or atleast make it easier for him. Listening to him cry that night was awful, and I just can't do enough. I love him so much, like no one ever before, and it hurts me to see him hurt. I need help.