If There Was No You (2/?)
Author : pgirl202
Title : If There Was No You (2/?)
Pairing : Callie/Arizona
Rating : R for language (eventually)
Summary : Callie and Arizona spent the past year together, but end their romance due to trust issues from both women. They still love each other and remain friendly. Will they get back together and have their love prove the test of time? Chapters will switch between Arizona and Callie’s POV.
I see your blue eyes, every time I close mine
You make hard to see
Where I belong to when I'm not around you
It's like I'm not with me
But I never told you, what I should of said
No I never told you, I just held it in
Callie
You are all I think about. When I dream at night, you are all I see. You are great, so amazingly great and I blew it. I will never stop missing you; I will never stop loving you. As I pace the floors of Seattle Grace, I find myself searching for your face, searching for the right words to tell you I’m sorry. I relive the night we broke up like a movie that never stops playing.
Three Months Earlier
Callie and I are in our apartment, well technically it’s still only mine, but she is here all the time, so we just call it home. Drawers are being thrown open, Callie taking everything out in handfuls and shoving it into one of her duffel bags that she never took back to her apartment when she left.
“Where the hell are you going Cal?” I was too tired to argue I had just worked a forty-three hour shift, so my voice was raspy, full of exhaustion but she could still hear me. She met my eyes with dark cold ones and went back to shoving shirts, jeans and scrubs into her bags.
“Maybe you should go back out with that redheaded nurse you were with, Zona. I am going home.” Her voice was cracking, she sounded broken and frail. But I had absolutely no idea what she meant.
“Calliope, what are you talking about? My shift just ended at the hospital, where the hell would I find time to go out? We’ve spent the other moments that we both were home with each other. If I were to go out, you’d be by my side” I went to reach for her arm but she pulled it back, so I placed my own back at my side.
“I went to the PED floor when my shift ended, because I knew yours ended an hour or so after mine, so I asked one of the nurses where you were and she said you were with some redheaded nurse named Melody. Who is she Arizona?” She started to raise her voice as her hands fell to her sides. This was not like Callie at all to get jealous; she knew my heart was only hers. “Who is she?” She asked again, not finding the strength to look at me.
I thought long and hard before it clicked in my head, obviously too long because Callie had picked up her bags and started walking to the door. “Calliope, wait!” I sprinted from the bedroom to the living room in order to catch her.
“Melody is one of the Mercy West PEDs residents. I was showing her around before my surgery started. Why are you acting so jealous? You really have nothing to be jealous of.”
Turning around, Callie looked at me with sad eyes, “I saw her with you Arizona, she couldn’t keep her eyes off you and you were way too friendly with her.” She turned back around and headed out the door. I stood in shock as the door slammed, now that Callie mentioned it, she was being very hands on with me, I was just being nice to actually notice her flirting with me. I planned on talking to Melody the next day about this. I was not going to lose the best thing in my life. I prayed that I didn’t lose her already, I saw the hurt and confusion on her face and it broke my heart. This was not fair to her, I promised Callie I wouldn’t hurt her but that is all I am doing.
Arizona
I watched Callie from my table at Joe’s, she had some gross lanky brunette next to her with this woman’s hand placed on the small of her back. They were ordering a drink and laughing. Tequila for Callie, typical; white wine for gross lanky brunette. Were they on a date? I slumped back in my seat, toying with my glass of vodka and cranberry. I didn’t even notice someone slip in next to me.
“Are they on a date?” His husky voice made me stumble out of my thoughts, Mark Sloan, always one for gossip was next to me,. I turned to see Lexie next to him, giving me an apologetic smile.
It sure seemed like they were on a date. I sat quietly before the next ten minutes, watching her every move before I excused myself with tears in my eyes. As I started to walk away, Mark grabbed my arm and hugged me tightly. “She isn’t over you Arizona, if she was, she wouldn’t keep mentioning your name every three seconds. The girl on her arm means nothing compared to the girl in her heart”
I headed out the door of Joe’s quickly, not even bothering to look in Callie’s direction and headed home for another sleepless night.
Title : If There Was No You (2/?)
Pairing : Callie/Arizona
Rating : R for language (eventually)
Summary : Callie and Arizona spent the past year together, but end their romance due to trust issues from both women. They still love each other and remain friendly. Will they get back together and have their love prove the test of time? Chapters will switch between Arizona and Callie’s POV.
I see your blue eyes, every time I close mine
You make hard to see
Where I belong to when I'm not around you
It's like I'm not with me
But I never told you, what I should of said
No I never told you, I just held it in
Callie
You are all I think about. When I dream at night, you are all I see. You are great, so amazingly great and I blew it. I will never stop missing you; I will never stop loving you. As I pace the floors of Seattle Grace, I find myself searching for your face, searching for the right words to tell you I’m sorry. I relive the night we broke up like a movie that never stops playing.
Three Months Earlier
Callie and I are in our apartment, well technically it’s still only mine, but she is here all the time, so we just call it home. Drawers are being thrown open, Callie taking everything out in handfuls and shoving it into one of her duffel bags that she never took back to her apartment when she left.
“Where the hell are you going Cal?” I was too tired to argue I had just worked a forty-three hour shift, so my voice was raspy, full of exhaustion but she could still hear me. She met my eyes with dark cold ones and went back to shoving shirts, jeans and scrubs into her bags.
“Maybe you should go back out with that redheaded nurse you were with, Zona. I am going home.” Her voice was cracking, she sounded broken and frail. But I had absolutely no idea what she meant.
“Calliope, what are you talking about? My shift just ended at the hospital, where the hell would I find time to go out? We’ve spent the other moments that we both were home with each other. If I were to go out, you’d be by my side” I went to reach for her arm but she pulled it back, so I placed my own back at my side.
“I went to the PED floor when my shift ended, because I knew yours ended an hour or so after mine, so I asked one of the nurses where you were and she said you were with some redheaded nurse named Melody. Who is she Arizona?” She started to raise her voice as her hands fell to her sides. This was not like Callie at all to get jealous; she knew my heart was only hers. “Who is she?” She asked again, not finding the strength to look at me.
I thought long and hard before it clicked in my head, obviously too long because Callie had picked up her bags and started walking to the door. “Calliope, wait!” I sprinted from the bedroom to the living room in order to catch her.
“Melody is one of the Mercy West PEDs residents. I was showing her around before my surgery started. Why are you acting so jealous? You really have nothing to be jealous of.”
Turning around, Callie looked at me with sad eyes, “I saw her with you Arizona, she couldn’t keep her eyes off you and you were way too friendly with her.” She turned back around and headed out the door. I stood in shock as the door slammed, now that Callie mentioned it, she was being very hands on with me, I was just being nice to actually notice her flirting with me. I planned on talking to Melody the next day about this. I was not going to lose the best thing in my life. I prayed that I didn’t lose her already, I saw the hurt and confusion on her face and it broke my heart. This was not fair to her, I promised Callie I wouldn’t hurt her but that is all I am doing.
Arizona
I watched Callie from my table at Joe’s, she had some gross lanky brunette next to her with this woman’s hand placed on the small of her back. They were ordering a drink and laughing. Tequila for Callie, typical; white wine for gross lanky brunette. Were they on a date? I slumped back in my seat, toying with my glass of vodka and cranberry. I didn’t even notice someone slip in next to me.
“Are they on a date?” His husky voice made me stumble out of my thoughts, Mark Sloan, always one for gossip was next to me,. I turned to see Lexie next to him, giving me an apologetic smile.
It sure seemed like they were on a date. I sat quietly before the next ten minutes, watching her every move before I excused myself with tears in my eyes. As I started to walk away, Mark grabbed my arm and hugged me tightly. “She isn’t over you Arizona, if she was, she wouldn’t keep mentioning your name every three seconds. The girl on her arm means nothing compared to the girl in her heart”
I headed out the door of Joe’s quickly, not even bothering to look in Callie’s direction and headed home for another sleepless night.