What lies beneath?
So, I started up with Kung Fu again, and I'm in the process of deciding whether I should go ahead and start taking Tai Chi as well. I'm not worried about the money or the time, just whether or not I'll be able to continue my practice into the school year (since I'll be doing Judo as well once classes start). Then again, I seem to have so much time for idle distractions like the internet and simply laying about, so perhaps I can handle it. I'll have to see.
Last night I had a dream that a murderer had taken some of my friends and was harrassing my family. When I caught him in my dream, I gagged him, hid him from the police, then tortured him for hours before I finally ended his life. I relished every moment of vengeance. If dreams speak of something within us, I wonder what this one says about me? I've always been a little afraid of darker things roiling just beneath the surface of my consciousness. Then again, nearly all humans feel desires to rape, pillage, and destroy. By denying these thoughts, our 'shadow selves' (to quote some vague psychologist) only grow in power. I'll have to find a way to healthily channel these sorts of impulses; unsettling dreams don't help anyone.
Last night I had a dream that a murderer had taken some of my friends and was harrassing my family. When I caught him in my dream, I gagged him, hid him from the police, then tortured him for hours before I finally ended his life. I relished every moment of vengeance. If dreams speak of something within us, I wonder what this one says about me? I've always been a little afraid of darker things roiling just beneath the surface of my consciousness. Then again, nearly all humans feel desires to rape, pillage, and destroy. By denying these thoughts, our 'shadow selves' (to quote some vague psychologist) only grow in power. I'll have to find a way to healthily channel these sorts of impulses; unsettling dreams don't help anyone.