old year, new year
When I did a recap of 2013 I apparently didn't bother to write up anything about my hopes or plans for 2014. Probably for the best as I imagine moving to Spain would upset the apple cart.
The mild stress of being slightly under-utilised and having time to ruminate. I know, I know, what a drag. The thoughts that skitter around the empty bowl of my brain currently being:
1. I miss Robin...
2. I'm a bit afraid of being "left behind", professionally speaking
1 is that Robin is my main emotional support, we usually skype once a week and exchange messages of some kind most days. I guess being separated is being harder than I realised, not that I think stopping to give it serious thought before I left would really have made it easier now.
2, well I guess this semi-break from programming is making me antsy for a professional challenge. I want my next job to help me grow. At the same time I'm a bit terrified of not being up to it, but I think that comes with the territory of having had the same job for 5 years.
I guess I am spending a bit of time thinking about what I want my life to look like, how much it will deviate from the prototypical open source hacker who speaks and attends multiple conferences a year, writes new libraries for fun, learns a new language every year, all that kind of crap. I kind of already know it is crap, but it is such an insidious meme. If my work is fulfilling that is 95% good enough for me. I want to spend my free hours moving my body, being outdoors, being with my people, loving. I figured this much out in the last few years, and Spain is not really changing that.
The mild stress of being slightly under-utilised and having time to ruminate. I know, I know, what a drag. The thoughts that skitter around the empty bowl of my brain currently being:
1. I miss Robin...
2. I'm a bit afraid of being "left behind", professionally speaking
1 is that Robin is my main emotional support, we usually skype once a week and exchange messages of some kind most days. I guess being separated is being harder than I realised, not that I think stopping to give it serious thought before I left would really have made it easier now.
2, well I guess this semi-break from programming is making me antsy for a professional challenge. I want my next job to help me grow. At the same time I'm a bit terrified of not being up to it, but I think that comes with the territory of having had the same job for 5 years.
I guess I am spending a bit of time thinking about what I want my life to look like, how much it will deviate from the prototypical open source hacker who speaks and attends multiple conferences a year, writes new libraries for fun, learns a new language every year, all that kind of crap. I kind of already know it is crap, but it is such an insidious meme. If my work is fulfilling that is 95% good enough for me. I want to spend my free hours moving my body, being outdoors, being with my people, loving. I figured this much out in the last few years, and Spain is not really changing that.