stupid stupid
you know... sometimes i really hate myself. a guy says that he's going to call and stupid me i actually believe him!!! i'm waiting here, waited all day... everywhere i went today i brought my phone, checked it every two sec to make it was on, working, and the sound was on. i'm sitting here, waiting.... i actually feel like crying and i hate myself for that!!! i guess IMing and calling isn't a sign that i want to talk. i know he got the messages, he checked my profile, but he's away message has been there all day. sometimes he's idle, sometimes he's not. AAHHH!!! well, hopefully my mood will change within the next few hours, or day. i have nothing to do this weekend... i was looking forward to some fun. not sure if he's going to read this, if he does, hope he gets the hint.