life sux
horoscope was right today... it said that i would hang out with people that i haven't hung out with in a while, and that happened. went to the opening gaming night with ARPC and i saw matt and i wanted to talk to him, and see who he heard this rumor from, but he was playing a game, and i actually didn't even want to look at him. after about an hour, we went to the game room and that was fun... i beat greg, crystal and chris at pool, but some was winning cause they got the 8 ball in before it was suppose to. hate winning that way.
i noticed that everyone is a couple now a days. seems like a lot of people are hooking up, esp with others from the lounge. i know i said i don't need a guy, but makes me sad seeing everyone and i have no one. nick is a lost cause.... i know i can never be with him, but it still makes me mad and upset that he doesn't even call anymore. trying to keep my mind on school, but that's not happening cause all i do is worry now. everyday, i worry that i'll fail a test, i wont know the answer, i don't pass to go to the next class, and most of all, i worry about graduating. i know i have to talk to my parent about it.. but i can't talk to me dad... and my mom has enough problems, i don't want to make it worse, telling her how badly i'm doing. i try and think that i don't need to worry about something that day, then i can forget about it for a day... but even now, i'm worried... i have a test tomorrow and a meeting with my advisor for classes. i'm going to try and forget about my problems till monday, so i can enjoy the long weekend at home, and talk to my mom. i want to know what is going on with her... it makes me sad that she's not telling me things.. i know when she does, i'll probably start crying and that makes her cry, and it makes me more upset... i don't know.... i just hate life right now... i don't know what to do
i noticed that everyone is a couple now a days. seems like a lot of people are hooking up, esp with others from the lounge. i know i said i don't need a guy, but makes me sad seeing everyone and i have no one. nick is a lost cause.... i know i can never be with him, but it still makes me mad and upset that he doesn't even call anymore. trying to keep my mind on school, but that's not happening cause all i do is worry now. everyday, i worry that i'll fail a test, i wont know the answer, i don't pass to go to the next class, and most of all, i worry about graduating. i know i have to talk to my parent about it.. but i can't talk to me dad... and my mom has enough problems, i don't want to make it worse, telling her how badly i'm doing. i try and think that i don't need to worry about something that day, then i can forget about it for a day... but even now, i'm worried... i have a test tomorrow and a meeting with my advisor for classes. i'm going to try and forget about my problems till monday, so i can enjoy the long weekend at home, and talk to my mom. i want to know what is going on with her... it makes me sad that she's not telling me things.. i know when she does, i'll probably start crying and that makes her cry, and it makes me more upset... i don't know.... i just hate life right now... i don't know what to do