...nothing really matters...
So here's an update from me....ish...because Kristi told me to...and sorta Liesbeth too :)
I'm home. Which is good and bad. This is the first time in a long long time I've actually wanted to be home, I thought I would feel better here, but so far it's sort of made me worse. I'm regressing into who I used to be, closed off, no friends, no self confidence, believing I'm useless. My mom wants me to start seeing someone, as in therapist-ish, cause she's worried about me, but that of course costs money we don't have. We're actually a lot worse off than I thought we were, and there's a whole lot of problems with my financial aid at the moment and is leaving my last year of school hanging in the balance. Without the MET anymore to keep me through, it's gonna be a rough last year. I've been feeling more lonely lately than I ever have, and I just sort of want to start over. I'm apprehensive of going back into the camp bubble cause I'm worried when I come out, my problems will just be worse. But enough sadness for now....
I've seen a whole bunch of movies lately. I recommend American DreamZ and Thank You for Smoking. I do not however recommend Stick it or Silent Hill (and if anyone who has seen this movie could explain the ending to me, it would be much appreciated). If anyone in the Heights area wants to hang, let me know...I don't think all this time sitting in my house is doing me much good. Grades turned out ok...not great but definately ok...my cooperating teacher seems like she's gonna be a blast to work with, and if anyone also in the heights area is willing to take me driving...we can take my mom's car if you're afraid of me crashing yours, I just need someone other than my parents in the car with me...I've got one month to get my licsense so it's crunch time. Anyways that's all from me for now...miss you...
~Jamie
I'm home. Which is good and bad. This is the first time in a long long time I've actually wanted to be home, I thought I would feel better here, but so far it's sort of made me worse. I'm regressing into who I used to be, closed off, no friends, no self confidence, believing I'm useless. My mom wants me to start seeing someone, as in therapist-ish, cause she's worried about me, but that of course costs money we don't have. We're actually a lot worse off than I thought we were, and there's a whole lot of problems with my financial aid at the moment and is leaving my last year of school hanging in the balance. Without the MET anymore to keep me through, it's gonna be a rough last year. I've been feeling more lonely lately than I ever have, and I just sort of want to start over. I'm apprehensive of going back into the camp bubble cause I'm worried when I come out, my problems will just be worse. But enough sadness for now....
I've seen a whole bunch of movies lately. I recommend American DreamZ and Thank You for Smoking. I do not however recommend Stick it or Silent Hill (and if anyone who has seen this movie could explain the ending to me, it would be much appreciated). If anyone in the Heights area wants to hang, let me know...I don't think all this time sitting in my house is doing me much good. Grades turned out ok...not great but definately ok...my cooperating teacher seems like she's gonna be a blast to work with, and if anyone also in the heights area is willing to take me driving...we can take my mom's car if you're afraid of me crashing yours, I just need someone other than my parents in the car with me...I've got one month to get my licsense so it's crunch time. Anyways that's all from me for now...miss you...
~Jamie