depressed
depressed about my weight, depressed about mistakes i make in my relationship, depressed about my partner's weight and my lack of physical attraction to him, depressed mostly about how i just screwed myself out of a year of my life that i could have been spending as a vet tech. i might not have gotten in anyway but i had a shot. now i have zero shots. no shots at all. if i could retake it next quarter i'd have a shot but i can't afford it. i won't be able to get financial aid having failed a course and i had to petition to get financial aid at all because i already have a bachelors degree. man am i sick of bullshit. and i'm even more sick of creating my own bullshit. i think i'll eat a cheeseburger and feel guilty about it.