i know you read this now, so here ill be open.
ive been hiding. apathy has held me by my neck. choking the life out of me. its left me empty and everyone has seen it.
i hate that.
i never like when i cant feel anything, and this time, asside from one night of anger driven binge drinking, i got myself out of it the healthy way.
communication is good.
road trips are going to become a more regular part of my life i think. my car gets good gas milage and they seem to relax me (even when im confused in a city not knowing where to go and the GPS isnt helping)
ive realized latly that i have alot to work on. im over stressed, im so tense that my bones sound like bubblewrap under a steam roller. my anxiety is chewing holes in my stomach, and the skin off my lips. im sick of being sick, and i need to do something about it. when i go for my next check up (next week) im going to ask about help with anxiety. its litteraly killing me and my relationships.
quite a few trips are planned including one i cant speak of here at this point in time. maybe after friday. but maybe not.
i cant find my notebook and it scares me. too much info in there to not find in my room. ive been driven to tears thinking i cant find it. i documented all my AZ trips in it. emorexia!
sipping lambic while LJ, this worked. my brain is empty.
i hate that.
i never like when i cant feel anything, and this time, asside from one night of anger driven binge drinking, i got myself out of it the healthy way.
communication is good.
road trips are going to become a more regular part of my life i think. my car gets good gas milage and they seem to relax me (even when im confused in a city not knowing where to go and the GPS isnt helping)
ive realized latly that i have alot to work on. im over stressed, im so tense that my bones sound like bubblewrap under a steam roller. my anxiety is chewing holes in my stomach, and the skin off my lips. im sick of being sick, and i need to do something about it. when i go for my next check up (next week) im going to ask about help with anxiety. its litteraly killing me and my relationships.
quite a few trips are planned including one i cant speak of here at this point in time. maybe after friday. but maybe not.
i cant find my notebook and it scares me. too much info in there to not find in my room. ive been driven to tears thinking i cant find it. i documented all my AZ trips in it. emorexia!
sipping lambic while LJ, this worked. my brain is empty.